Naz-riano

2011-08-28T08:41:00.001-07:00

And so we're left with one more day to fast!

After that, its

HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!

I'm very excited to visit my relatives and go around from houses to houses eating really good food. No, actually the only thing that I'm genuinely excited for is to eat. Just eating alone. Yeah.

I have to be honest this time. I haven't been a very good Muslim this year. Or was it every year? Well, that's not the point. The thing about me this year is that, I didn't have much control over my temptations to certain things. My faith was not the strongest this time. It seemed that I found myself giving in to desires very easily which meant breaking my fast on some days. That sucked bad cos on some(4) days I broke my fast at the time of day when its just a few more hours to go to the actual breaking fast. Damn wasted.

Okay, tomorrow blog again. Haha. The blogging feeling is back man. Wow.

2011-08-27T11:52:00.000-07:00

I've decided to blog again since I have so much free time nowadays. Being in SAF band has its advantages and hence I should definitely make use of it wisely.

I doubt anyone will read this space cos its been dead for way too long. And i'm very glad honestly. The few upcoming posts will be very serious. I've been thinking about my future and more importantly about life ever since I got my A level results and being enlisted into the army. With that, I am going to pour out all my deepest heartfelt emotions into this personal space for my own good.

Anyway, Blogger is still very much the same from the last time I used it! hehe.

2009-10-13T20:16:00.000-07:00

I guess this time its for real now.

I'm really left alone. My primary pillar of support has gone away. I have to stand strong on my own two feet. As much as I do not want things to be ugly, I presume it did. Uglier than I thought. Its very regretful and too valuable to let go. But no matter I have to move on.

Yes, I am deeply sad. But what can I possibly do. I've tried every single way to make things better. It still takes two hands to clap. One is not enough.

Ever since we fell out, I've always wished that we can be friends again.
I finally understand how fragile Friendship is.
Even breakable than a mirror glass.

God, hold me tight. I don't wanna fall out from your embrace.

2009-06-26T01:29:00.000-07:00

What the F***~!

Am I pro or what?
I haven't been in touch with Blogger close to a year. Anyone can beat that?

No, actually I was in a coma in the hospital and I just woke up from my hibernation yesterday.
._.
Yeah and that explains my long term disappearance. This place is so dead and empty that I contemplate whether to post anything here again.

School is going to open real soon. All the while I had been praying for an extended holiday but it didn't seem to be materilizing leh. Shit man. I even plan to pace myself in my revision for Maths. Seems to me that I have to cramp everything to just the remaining two days of the weekends.

Hallelujah!

2008-10-24T00:24:00.000-07:00

Hello!

For now, I can't blog cos my internet connection at home is kinda screw up. So I don't think I'll be blogging for a few days.

Anyway, these few days its all about PW. The PW frenzy. Dang.
But its okay. Its all going to be over soon.

Okay. I have nothing much to say for now. Using Farhan lappy now and currently at Minghuat's house. Waiting for band to start...

Farhan's laptop has this cool photo thing, I'm not sure what its called but there its fun to play with. Okay. Now lets enjoy the lame pictures that I've taken.

Ciaos!

2008-10-19T06:53:00.001-07:00

All of a sudden, I think of my worrying promotion status.
Okay, this is kinda slow but I can't help it anymore. I need to rant it out from my chest before it starts to eat my sanity.

So you see. I am actually fine with retaining. Its not always bad thing right.
You have an extra year to brush up everything and perhaps getting As and Bs in tests and examinations may be easier after all.

But my primary concern is that I will be left alone in J1 when my friends are already promoted.
I hate the feeling of being left alone in the shelf. Its like we have no more in common. All the things that we want to do kind of disappear.

Seriously, and starting life in a new environment and getting to know new mates is tiring you know. Especially when I am not good in opening myself up to strangers.

I am basically saying the possible outcomes that may await one. Well, of course I do want to get promoted as much as I pray hard for.

Slowly, I got to know that many of my friends made it to J2. I am very happy for them too.

I am so insecure.
Normal feeling I guess?

I shall talk to my teacher whether there is a chance of me getting promoted.
Just to clear the insecurities that had been lingering in my mind for the past few days.
And its time to get rid of it once and for all.

I will work hundred times harder next year if I really get promoted!
I must and I will!

************

Went back to Chung Cheng and its been months since I step foot there. I miss the band and my juniors so much.

I got to see my Vintage once again. So happy.

The super round and solid tone. I miss that. And the luxury of having an extra Eb key.
I wish I had one in Nanyang.

A few days back, I attended the NAFA concert. Met up with the Xinmin people. I know its kinda weird to be mixing a lot with XMS students. I too wonder how I can end up being friends with them. Must be Kenny.

Anyway, it was pretty entertaining I must say. However, I thought the band was slightly off form on that day. Heck, the Movement for Rosa made my hair stood.

One whole row occupied by NYJCians.

Eunice! One of my favourite seniors. Haha. Here comes favouritism...

Clement performed on that day. Haha. And he sang!

Okay. I want to watch AVP 2. WOHOO.

Violence! Action packed once again!
Best!

2008-10-18T05:26:00.000-07:00

Life's been pretty mundane. Every day is filled with PW and a couple of lectures. Intensive Mother Tongue lessons don't appear to be that intensive frankly. Am getting sick of these robotic sequences of life. Like each day when I wake up, nothing is new. Its basically the same old stuffs.

I need a fresh start in my life.
Sort of.

And I feel kind of sad every time after my lessons end. Its a little hilarious if I were to think about it. But I am not the type of person who goes back straight home after school. I usually go out with friends to anywhere. Plus, I do not mind traveling. However,the thing is. When I crack my skull to think of who whether to ask out, my mind goes blank. Like God's trying to make me go home straight right after school.

Okay wait. I do go out for awhile. Just that, I only hang around the areas near my house. Fucking boring.

Yeah. If you do not realize by now, you are actually reading someone's blog who hates going back home. And loves going out and have fun. Party all night long.

Lol. I am serious.

I want to go places as far as Bugis.
Orchard.
Jurong.
Tampines.
Esplanade.

I want to venture out out out.
=.=

Okay. I swear from now on. I will ask anyone out and go anywhere I wish to. I must do it. Especially before band resumes. Cos my Fridays and Wednesday will be consumed by band practices once again.

So starting Monday,

Where should I go?

??????????????????????

Oh fuck. I don't know.

And how about Tuesday?

?????????????????????

Freak. I have no idea.

Perhaps I should go to Plaza Singapura on Tuesday.
Just to eat Waffle Ice cream.

WAAAA.

Shiok.

I shall ponder on what Monday may has to offer...

2008-10-15T06:48:00.000-07:00

Lets just say I met the promotion criteria the other way round.

The promotional criteria is a pass in one H1 subject and two H2 passes.

Well, what can I do. I shall pray really really hard that my CA and Mid Years will save me.

For now, I shall wait for the overall result to be released. No point mulling over something that is beyond my ability to change it. I can't do magic neither am I brave enough to break into the General Office at night and somehow find a way to edit my marks. Probably I might just get myself expelled from the school. =.=

TIME TO HAVE FAITH!

Smiley face appear!

2008-10-14T09:15:00.000-07:00

JUDGMENT DAY.

2008-10-12T05:56:00.000-07:00

Sentosa!

Sentosa!

Sentosa!

Baby, it was fun to the maximum.
Swimming along the beach, cycling around the whole of Sentosa and having a picnic with friends were the best. Those mentioned activities had been in my have-to-do list ever since Promos ended. And finally, I did those things. =D

Shiok.

The result of being under the sun for quite some time can be a little painful when I actually look like a lobster. I look damn red. But not bad eh. Its my favourite colour too. So, I do not really mind being red.
My face hurts at times too when I try to do some extreme facial expressions. So, now I think I look quite expressionless. =.=

So met up with Kenny first at 10 am or so. Which we then headed to Khatib MRT station to meet with Weilin.
Anyway, I was a damn kind soul that day man. Cos I helped an old lady to carry her bukly stuffs until Bishan MRT and even to alight just to cater to her convenience.

But she kinda annoyed me when she asked this question.

" Are you a Phillipino?"

God damn it I am not.

I had been asked the same question for four times already and still active.

I wonder which part of me actually looks like its made in Phillipino.
Hmmm...

Whatever it is, lets get back to topic.

In Vivo.
While finding our way to the Sentosa Monorail station.

Sharlyn and Weixiang.
They got married over the hills and far away!

We've reached. Sentosa here we come!

Them again.

I kinda like this picture.
We have different facial expressions.
First, I don't know what the hell is that expression.
Second, Heh heh. Distracted.
Third, act shy.
Last, er.. Vincent is in his own world.

Departure. We're going overseas.

Deciding on which beach to go to.

From the left, Kenny, Me, Sharlyn, Weixiang and Vincent.
Weilin is not in the picture.

We cycled the whole of Sentosa. It was exhausting but super fun.
That was taken when we were lost and resting.

Cheers!

After barbequing ourselves in Sentosa, we got ourselves cooled in Vivo.

I love going to Toys R Us. Cos I can see Cheryl there. ^^

Hello Cheryl!

And now, Kenny is bringing Cheryl around on a pram.

Cheryl, acting cool.
Haha.

Elmo. Cookie monster. Spongebob Squarepants. And unknown teddy.

Afterwards, all of us slacked at Vivo. The big space at the top floor. Super relaxing. Just chitchatting, munched our food, and singing our hearts out up there.

What a carefree moment!

I want to do that again sia.

My face is red sia. =.=

Emo seh...

What an exciting day.
Haaaaaaaaa. I shall plan another one for my friends in NYJC the next time. And it will be in East Coast Part. I swear.

Shall look forward to it.

2008-10-09T10:42:00.000-07:00

Right after my last paper, I went on a tour around Singapore!
I am serious. From school, I went back to Yishun aimlessly. And then boarded 965 to Sengkang to meet a friend. Slacked there awhile and headed for Plaza Singapura to meet up with the bandits.

They ate Gelare but I passed. Its alil expensive for me. Ha.

Flautists can be so similar at times. Just look at how they set their hands.

Afterwards, we made a short foray to Orchard but was deemed a pointless trip since the music shop that Clement was talking about was closed. After that, we took a bus and went to Suntec and I finally ate my breakfast/lunch/dinner there. =.=

Its kinda exciting to be blank and go aimless once in awhile.

Just let your legs be in control without your mind technically planning a destination to go to.
Makes life even more unpredictable and so unplanned.

The Fountain of Wealth in Suntec was such a terrific scene to watch. The laser lights that shone through the thick night atmosphere just livened up the mood. And the sprayed water which showered around the outskirts of the fountain freshened things more. Plus, the music blasted in the night air made me want to dance in the rain and rejoice over the end of the Promotional Examinations.

Which I did a little when noones watching.

Happy happy!

The next day was an off day! Cos there weren't any papers on that day.

So I decided to catch a movie with my best buddies. Met up with Kenny and Farhan first at AMK hub. Then met MInghuat at the MRT. Initially, I wanted to catch it at Plaza Sing. However, Farhan just came back for a swim with his friends and he must be tired.
So, I was being kind to let him off and instead we went to GV Yishun.

Watched Eagles Eye.

DAMN BLARDY GOOD, i tell you.

Better watch it man. Cos if not, you'll miss out alot. Though it was rated like 3 stars or something, I thought it deserved more than that! Basically, it was about terrorism. Just that this time round it has its twist.

I am going Sentosa in approximately 7 hours time!

With my YPSB juniors. I shall not classify Kenny as my junior anymore cos you didn't like that label. Hence, I shall call you my friend.

My very best friend... (X

2008-10-06T05:07:00.001-07:00

Hey ho !

I recorded yet another new song. &Shit. I can't stop singing now. Damn.

Well, I was watching a video on youtube showing Utada Hikaru singing Boulevard Of Broken Dreams by Greenday. And it was awesome man.
From then on, it got me started. I can't stop singing that tune and I even wanted to do a version of my own.

So here it is.
Ohhhh. And pardon me for not censoring the F word.
==
Forgot sia.

Boulevard of Broken Dreams - Naz

Perhaps I shouldn't sing rock songs like Leewei said. Doesn't suit my voice. And I kinda agree.
Its a good experience to sing a genre of not my forte. But the songs that I sang before were all un-rock-ish too. And it still sounded...bad. Wait. That means I don't have a forte.
Oh dang.

Shaun came over on Sunday. And he wanted to try to make an emo photo of himself too. But I think mine's better. 0.0

Emo sehhh.

Porn star and a err...a boy who wanted to sneeze.

Tomorrow's my last paper. Wish me all the best!
Chemistry MCQ. =D

2008-10-04T08:15:00.000-07:00

Having one whole week of unofficial holiday can be excruciating especially when I have nothing to do. Besides studying and probably go visiting to my relatives house, there is just nothing else I can possibly do. I wanted to go out...which I did but basically I end up getting stuck in Yishun for seven days and not leaving this neighbourhood.

Come to think of it. It all thanks to NYJC for planning such schedule.

Its really not necessary for NYJC to spread the Promotional Examinations to three freaking long weeks. It makes us suffer even more just waiting for our exams to end. Unlike other jcs like Anderson whereby they torture their students for a single week only. The pain is just short and sweet.

Enough said. And I shall move on with my mundane life.

As some of you know, I bought a microphone recently.
And it had been my greatest friend at home accompanying me throughout the days. I made full use of it and recorded numerous songs.

Well, most of my recordings are not fit enough to be posted here. And that includes the one that I posted yesterday.Nevertheless, there are a couple which are pretty nice to listen to.

Okay, sorry if I sound BHB but can't I be once in a while?

Fly Me to the Moon - Naz

I've always been a fan of Frank Sinatra's songs. Not the person though. Plus maybe the voice as well. He has this unique solid deep voice that glues into your head once you listen to it. And it gets very addictive to keep listening to it over and over again.

And I don't know...at times you just want to immerse into the song and start singing to the tune and dance along with it as well.

Fret not, I am trying to improve my rusty voice once and for all. Its been quite some time since I sang seriously. And I've decided to do it serious again.

LOL.

I sound as if I am a professional singer. My ass.

" I am singing seriously now. Really. I am..."
==

Noelle came over and we did a few duets on that day. It turned out so bad that we were laughing at our recorded voices most of the time. ==
Stupid siol. And me and my zhaoxia.
Gay gay gay...

My chin hurts so bad these days man. There are like a cluster of pimples growing underneath my lips. And it is painful when I go to sleep.
Don't ask me why... I wonder why too...
Hmmm....

I can't help but to miss you. The times we spent together... Its taking a toll on me now. Its weird. Time lag I guess. Seriously, I miss you. I can go on forever saying that same phrase over and over.

I really wish to repent my mistakes and start over. However, I'm not too optimistic about that because I am afraid of repeating that same mistake again. And I will end up hurting you for the second time. Its too much for you to take once again.

But there is one thing I can promise. I promise that I will give in to you so much more compared to the previous me.
I could just hold your hands. I could just walk you with under the stars again.
I could just hug you to give you the assurance that everything will be okay.
I could just smile to you and make your day.
I could just be with you and share our love again.

It could. And it could not.

On an another note, I am pretty messed up these days. Up in my head.... I don't quite understand what I am feeling right now. The things which my heart feels may very much deceive me. Or it may just be the truth. Damn. I hate this brutal familiarity.

And you know I am helping you but I need to help myself too.

You and you.
Thanks for making me ponder these days.
With love.

Ya... I am in love. Again.
Eh no. It might not be love. It may very well be puppy love. Or infatuation. Or crush. Ya lo.

Okay. Fine. ==

I don't know.

2008-10-03T06:59:00.000-07:00

Listen to this.
It might not be so obvious to some of you. But just watch out for the transition to the chorus.
You will catch something pretty interesting.

The best thing was, I did not even notice that I was doing that. ==

And pardon my singing. Total shit.

When Youre Gone (NG) - Naz

2008-10-02T08:44:00.000-07:00

Remember Lantern Festival?

I celebrated it with my friends plus his birthday as well. That time I was still fasting and I dreaded waiting for the time to break fast. Cos looking at my friends eat tempted me so much man.
I know very well that spending time with Cladys Liting and Clement were really nice. Chit chatting till late night was pretty relaxing.

So here are the pictures.

Clement.

Liting.

Cladys.

Alright. I'm off to sleep. Have several activities planned for tomorrow. Buy new microphones and do a recording with Noelle. Shiok balls.

Chiaos.

2008-10-01T22:54:00.000-07:00

Selamat Hari Raya!

Sempena bulan yang sungguh mulia ini, saya ingin mengambil kesempatan ini untuk memohon maaf atas kesilapan saya. Kalau tersilap kata atau menyinggung hati semua, saya harap semua maafkan.

Lol.

Go get yourself a translator.

This year celebration was to me the worst ever. The "gan jue" was not there and everything seemed dull except for the fact that my room is so sexy. And the money I got from everyone was relatively small. Sian. Ok. I know very money-face. Cannot help it siol cos I need to pay alot of things. Lol. Cheapskate.

So I cannot blog about Hari Raya since I did so little things that make it so insignificant to be worth a mention here.

p/s: I have to go to IKEA to shop for stuffs to adorn my room more. My sexy room still quite empty. Need more things to fill it up. Go IKEA!

2008-09-29T07:47:00.000-07:00

Hello World.

I finished painting my room!

Horrah to me!

And its red.
Super sexy I tell you.
I'll get excited every time I enter my room.

One day, I shall post it here once my room is finally in decent condition. Cos right now, it seems as if my room had been struck by a tornado or hurricane or something. All my books had been flown out of place and my stacks of papers and files are everywhere on the floor.

I don't even dare to sleep in it these days cos I'm afraid I might die or get injured in my very own room. Who knows I might step on something sharp. Or probably slip and fall and hit my head on god knows what. Yup.

Anyway, after much contemplation, I decided to go out today. After settling all my chores, I met up with Noelle. We played at the AMK hub arcade. So long siol I never get to go crazy and play like a kid again. And I did today. Happy, happy.

Digressing, I was so sway today. zzz

I got myself into a pretty embarrassing situation which I swear I will never get myself involved again. So here was how it went.

I was walking with Kenny leisurely outside Golden Village Burger King. Since it was a school day, my curiosity got the better of me. And its definitely not good when that happens. My eyes were scanning the fast food restaurant and was searching any souls that I might happen to know.

Until the end of the restaurant, I finally saw someone I thought I knew.

Note: Thought equals to assume

That "friend" of mine was studying inside with another guy. Both of them were from Chung Cheng.

So, I slowed my pace and started doing hand signs outside the restaurant without being oblivious that people were staring at me from inside. I did things like making faces, big actions to attract my "friend" attention and pointing fingers at her. And all that just to catch her attention.

Luckily, it was to no avail. Subsequently, I signaled the guy to call her. Ironically, he was pretty confused at what I was doing. Probably, he thought I was insane.

Suddenly, my intuition told me to take a closer look at the supposed friend of mine again. To my deepest shock ( I almost died of a heart attack), the girl was not my friend.

Panic time.

*Ding Dong*
And the small voice in me went,

" Okay Nazreen, RUUUUNNNNNNN! "

I literally ran. I swore I never ran as fast before.

I think I ran even faster than my 2.4km race. Cos I didn't want that couple to come out of the restaurant and try to see who was the one signaling them frantically.

It was a good thing I did not come in and talk to them. If not, I would just faint after realizing her face seems different.

Paiseh. But never mind. At least they do not recognize me. (=
Thank god.

2008-09-28T20:29:00.000-07:00

Okay I am so emo now.
(Actually I'm not...)

I lost my EZ link card again. What the fuck. Its not even 3 months old and I lost it. And its my only sec 1 photo. Damn it. My first EZ link photo was taken in Pri 6. The one I lost was taken in Sec 1. What now? The new one will be what. Sec 2? Fucking card.

I must be happy. Don't emo. Cannot sad sad siol. Later ruin my perfect day.
Hence, I shall sing When You're Gone By Avril Lavigne...

Turn on the song and sing along if you can ok?

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
(Where are you EZ link...? * sob sob*)
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
( I feel so empty without you...)
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side
( You were always on my butt err not really my bed...)

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
( Yes! Because I need you to board the bus!)

[Chorus]

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
( I miss you EZ link...)
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
( My face... My face...is gone too!)
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
( Like, " Okay...We'll go board the train today ok?")
I miss you
( I miss you EZ link...)

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
(I eat I think of you. I shit I think of you. I sleep I think of you.)
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do
( For taking me around Singapore and going "Teh! Teh!" when I tap you...)

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
( Yes! Because I need you to board the train!)

[Chorus]

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah
( I can't breathe...I can't breathe...Help me! Help me! *chokes and dies*)

[Chorus]

Pardon me for doing such a lame thing. My head is going bonkers. And I have yet to think of how to travel wihout my EZ link.
Damn EZ link.

2008-09-28T09:33:00.000-07:00

Noelle aka Chiobu aka Choubu

I shall expose you here. Heheh.

You see, every time we meet up, this girl will snatch my phone and snap photos of herself. And it will all be stored in my phone. == A very habit of her.

Self obsession syndrome.

Don't sia dao when you see a lot of close up of that girl.

Okay la. Quite chio. Must give some face also since I did not ask any permission of hers to post the pictures here. 0.0

I just came back from Orchard after having a buffet there with my cousin.

I feel like I'm pregnant. Seriously.

Yeah, not baby inside but shit waiting to be discharged.

It felt really good to be actually setting foot there after weeks of intense stress filled with revisions preparing for Promos. Pretty relaxing I must say. And the streets were ironically empty except for the ones along Takashimaya and Wisma Atria. I guess its all because of that F1 race which was also happening.

I didn't catch any of the race. Sadly. It seemed that I am not slightly interested in the race. I do watch F1 but somehow this time it doesn't excite me that much. Hmm, I do not know why either. Probably, I took the night race in Singapore for granted cos its held in my very homeland which wasn't much of a deal also.

Its over anyway. Why fret.

Okay. I'm off to sleep now. Oh and for your information, I have holiday for one whole week. Including Wednesday which will be Hari Raya. Shiokness. But I have no clue on how to spend it.
=/

Chiaos.

2008-09-27T01:03:00.000-07:00

I still have a lot to blog about. I postponed the entries for the previous events until now. And since I finally have the time to blog, I shall not waste anymore time in case I lose my drive to blog.

So some time back, when the Muslims started to fast, I met up with my dear secondary school friends to break fast together. We went to Lucky Plaza for this Indonesian restaurant which sells drool-worthy Nasi Ayam Penyek ( Smashed Chicken Rice). Haha. The direct translation sounds funny.

I had fun spending time and catching up with them. They are feeling stress being in a Junior College too. Haha. Poor us.

Syakinah, Sabrina, Ruiwei and Hezel.

I do miss having Malays in my class. Here in NYJC, I'm the only one in my class and it does feel a little awkward at times. I don't know. Maybe I wasn't used to that type of situation. Yeah. Although I was previously from Chung Cheng, I had at least 6 Malays in my class. And it felt good to have people speaking the same language as me.

And my hair looked short. Cos I think I just shaved. But now, it looks quite alright since it has grown.

Met up with Bryan and Kenny before going to Junior Band Festival. I was fasting that day and I was fucking mad the whole day cos I can't eat. Just looking at my friends eat with an empty stomach ruined my day even more.

Very Barbaric siol.

I admit it was embarrassing to be sitting beside two boys eating their chicken like pigs. Though I think I will also behave that way if I could actually join them at that point of time.
I understand I understand...
And what made me felt worst was the fact that the three of us were beside two ang moh dining. The European couple must be thinking how uncivilised Singaporean kids are when comes to food.

Barbarically insane!

The table that we sat on became messy with bones and the leftovers from the chicken flesh.
==

Okay. Lets end this post for now. I'm bored.
I feel like watching Titanic, Swing Girls and 200 Pounds Beauty with my friends. Sleepover and having a movie marathon in my house. Maximum coolness.

Hello.
Haha. Who is this?

2008-09-26T10:28:00.001-07:00

I am back in action.

Haha. Stupid face.

Going through hell was painful and I swear it was definitely not the best situation for anyone to get stuck in. Apart from being all stressed up, there are other more sick emotions lingering all around. Just sick as hell.

Well, I am glad I am free from being tied to intensive revision every single night. Now, I can sleep in the morning, afternoon and at night without feeling guilty even for a microscopic bit. Such goodness. I love life currently.
I'm done with most of my papers. The last one will be Chemistry Paper 1 which is next next week. Its still quite far away. I shall do my best in that last section of the paper as I believe its my only pathetic life saver. Pathetic or what, I am hoping it will pull my grades up at least to an S or E though it might seem too bleak for that to happen. Damn. I shouldn't let pessimism get the better of me.

Even though, I'm pretty much done with the papers, the after effect of the examinations is way too huge for me to handle. The paranoia is in town! Its ruining my life now. Every now and then when someone or something just had to remind me of the papers, I will go bonkers and start to sulk. And get emo.

What the fuckness.
I know. Can't help it siol.

I can't do anything to change the things I wrote in my papers. So I have to pray so much that I do not get retain.

I'll skip that negativity and move on now.

Anyway, having all the time in the world now, I shall finish off Season One of Shakugan No Shana. Its one darn good anime. Inuyasha was the last one that I got addicted to and now I'm stuck to this.

Its freaking nice and I urge you to watch it.

I love the way the storyline goes and how interesting the characters are.
The fighting scenes always make me go

"Uh~! Ah~! Dang! Yessssssss!"

Go watch it.

2008-09-20T11:00:00.000-07:00

Its one darn long HIATUS.

And still is.

I just want to say some few words.

I am hoping to get promoted.
The desire is beyond words...

One more day to Promos. My mind is swirling with anxiety and paranoia. Those things bug me like mad deteriorating my healthy state of mind to act sanely. And to prove how insane I've already become, I swear I cannot wait for promos to come.

Provided the end result is what I desire.
That is to get promoted.

The only thing that keeps me at the verge of snapping is Chemistry.
That is the only thing that I worry so so much.
I do not wish to recall that horrific moment of Mid Years.

I just want to do well in it this time. I've changed my mindset and attitude for the better and I pray as much as I could to at least get an overall pass in the subject ; after including the percentage of Mid Years, CA and Promos.

Chemistry...

Enlighten me.
Give me the power to do well this time!

All the best to me. And everyone else who are going to sit for the...

Promotional Examinations.

I'll save the wishes for those sitting for the A levels later after I'm done with Promos.

2008-09-04T06:41:00.000-07:00

Do not want to live in self denial.
Doing good sometimes I yearn for something back in return.
Not getting back from the certain individual directly,
but any good that comes along.

Its okay. I will continue what I enjoy doing.
Do good. And expect nothing in return.
At least I'll feel the immense satisfaction of being kind.

2008-09-01T07:07:00.000-07:00

MY PHONE CAN USE ALREADY.

Big deal.

Part of 4F. (:

2008-08-31T19:21:00.000-07:00

I went back to Chung Cheng on Teachers Day. Oh boy, i miss the whole environment so much. I can still remember those sweet bitter times vividly that I spent with my secondary school friends.

CCHYSB, 4F....

Why does all good things always come to an end. That is so harsh and brutal.
Can't the world be a little more sensitive to the humankind? Dang. Oh well, it can't be change so lets get back to reality and resume my life back.

Basically, the celebration in NYJC was too similar to a Sports Day that I was lamed. I appreciated what the student councilors had done and respect on what they had planned for us. However, the sentimental feel of rejoicing over the achievements of our teachers seem to fade away. And I would want that back. The same old feeling that never fails to pump into my heart everytime Teachers Day comes.

Emo no more!

And I shall move on to the good and happy stuffs.

Bestfriend eh brother....

The guys...

We are neighbours. And still is!

With CheeKwong as the ghostly figure...
=.=

Sabrina and Shaun.

Minghuato-san.

Malay Class of 07'
From the left.
Hezel, Minette, Cikgu Sharizan, Syakinah, Atiqah and Farid.
(Without Sabrina and Farah and Pawan who MIA-ed)

With Pawan, Sabrina and Farah... Well, they appeared after that.

Oh shoot.
I didn't take any pictures of 4F. Never mind I shall get it from the rest.
Damn, how can I forget such things.

2008-08-30T06:58:00.000-07:00

Sunflowers are beautiful.

And I shall prove to you that I love them.

Gerard loves em too. Brothers ah!

This is just a silly picture with a nonsensical pose.
I looked shy.

Truth is, Nazreen finally got sick and tired of being single. Its been some time since he had been involved in a relationship. So, he was trying his luck in jio-ing some of his band mates. He prepared a bouquet of flowers for the lucky girl who was willing to accept him.
What a fortunate girl...

First, he tried his luck on Cladys. She was a cute and petite girl and he found her fascinating.
=.=

Okay. Do not be fool by her expression. Right after he knelt down, she pushed him and kicked him hard on the stomach. Poor boy.

Rejected.

Next in line was Liting. The nice and sweet girl from the percussion. He always liked sweet girls cos they never failed to make his day. So, he put his courage into action and proposed for the second time.

Oh. Yes. She smiled. She pulled him up afterwards and then whispered to his ears.

"You are so sweet luh, I am so embarrassed. (blushed face) But aiya, I got boyfriend liao."

*piangs!*

Can you hear his heart break?

Rejected.

This is going to be hard. Keisha, his section mate was one tough girl.
He always made fun of her during Malay lessons and now he was trying to change things around by jio-ing her. That was plain crazy.

Of course. A real tight slap suits the situation.

Rejected.

He was crestfallen and did not dare to face the world. Three girls rejected him straight. How worst can it get? He said to himself.

"I hate girls. They are mean creatures. I shall never go back to them again."
*sob sob*

(Okay, I'm laughing my ass of while typing all these. Trust me. This is getting gayer than ever before)

And he turned un-straight since then.

Interestingly, his buddy Gerard got excited and wasted no time when he heard the good news. He bought him a bouquet of flowers and gave it to him.

Naz was so happy and gayful. Sadly, he was not ready for any serious commitment YET.
So he did accept the flowers but give no answer.

"Perhaps I am ready now..." said Naz.

So he took Gerard's flowers (he was just being giam siap) and was determined that he would find his true love.

He targeted his shi-fu, Clement. Lol. Okay. That expression says it all.

Rejected.

"Its okay..." he told himself.

Then he thought of someone.
*ding!*
His light bulb lighted up.

He went for his bestfriend now. He was being crazy and was in a risky gamble. He had always treated him as a brother and a close friend.
But he told himself
"Ah heck. I don't care! I do not want to be single anymore!"

Look at how touched Farhan was. Oh well, he was delighted to see the flowers. Later, he found Naz too crazy to turn un-straight just because girls rejected him thrice in a row.

He exclaimed,
"Wake up la Bro! Its not the end of the world!
Girls are like the gazillions of fishes in the big sea. "

Rejected.

Okay. This will be the last. If not, he'll just die and perish from this forsaken realm.

Okay. Let the pictures do the talking now.

HAHAHAHA.
Lame ass entry.

-THE END-

Siol la! Nice face matey...

Hey Jo! Your eyes. And theres a sunflower growing on your head.

Haha. Jump shots at the back. Cool.

Pictures from Gerard. Thanks Brother! Snap more next time. LOL.

2008-08-23T05:49:00.000-07:00

Finally, the band has stand down. I am very relieve to know that. Its time to get serious and really get down to business. Promos is coming soon. And its pretty scary to just even think about it.
Since, there is no reason to think about the band too much, I shall start my revision properly. Yes, I mean a proper effective revision.

If anyone of you did call or message me, I solely apologize for not giving a response.

My phone is officially in a coma.

The line has totally been cut off. Suspended.
Even if you were to call, there will not be any difference cos I cannot even pick it up.

Its a shitty feeling to be uncontactable. I have the orgasmic urge to call and message my friends badly. But sadly I just can't. Damn. I feel as if I have been thrown into another planet. Noone could get to me anywhere anytime. Sucks.

Yeah, this is how I truly feels.
Drive out of Earth and dump to Mars.

New update.
I shaved my head. I am skin head now.
I guess I am reliving the tradition once again.

I remembered shaving my head before O levels cos I was too stressed.
To me, its a therapy to touch my head when I am studying. You see, everytime I tense up, I tend to pull my hair and its rather uncomfortable to do so. And you will see strains of hair on my books and worksheets.

Now, with short hair,
its heaven!

Whenever I get stress, I just have to lift my hands place it on my head and rub it gently. The feeling of having your palms touching the hair is very euphoric. Trust me. It feels like caressing a puppy or something.

That is why I shave my head. I am turning around the situation into a positive one!

Anyway, I promise Farhan that I will shave my head. I guess I did it. Unfortunately, I shave my head not to show my support for the cancer patients. I am doing so for my own good sake. Okay. Maybe I shall dedicate my shaved head to show my support for the children cancer patients.

I am supporting the children cancer patients by shaving my head!

Ok. I shall show you how I look like.

Haha. Yes. I look like someone who had just been released from jail or maybe an army man.
Cool.

I realized that suddenly I got freaking loads of grey hair. Alot like mad. Especially at the sides of my head. I shall dye my hair. Dang.

2008-08-18T04:39:00.000-07:00

Yes. I am blogging again. Now in the midst of intense anger.

I definitely had enough of all this shit at home. The house is wrecking and I hate going home now.

I desperately think my house need some major improvements in all aspects.

1) My father has to change.

2) My mother has to be stronger.

I don't know I feel that she has to stand up for what she wants. I know there is a limit to her patience but somehow she has to take things lightly. And not go hay wire when difficulty goes a notch higher. She has to stand up. Or probably fight for justice. Whatever the case is.

I know she needs support. I hope I do give her enough. All I want her to be is to fight. Not go into a wrestle with someone. Simply fight for what you want and not be so nice to everything that comes in your way. If necessary, a fist fight would suffice.

3) My house has to be organized

No. Not neat. More of the things done at home. It seems that there are no rules or certain objective to what we do. And that applies to me too. I should posses self discipline in controlling whatever I do. I admit I have ZERO control to whatever I do. I do everything to my hearts content. And that needs to change.

My parents are all working and they have no more time for me. My mother never work when I was in primary school. No wonder its only taking the toll on me now. Hence, she had more time to spend for me and my brother back then.

During weekends, both of them would not be at home. Making me feel so out of place. Seriously. This whole thing should not go on. If not, I will die. Death will slowly creep its way and eat away the sanity left over in me.

Frankly, I have never felt so lost before. I feel as if I have no place where I truly belong. School is already excruciating enough. I keep telling myself to take it easy and do not bother about less important stuff such as blah blah blah. But I can not do it.

I see my friends leading life so care free. Wait. They have problems. Duh. However, they are less stress up over affairs at home. Maybe they do. For me, I want things at home to be smooth and steady. I yearn for peace and serenity at home. Not a place with such complex maze for me to find my way out.

Trust me. This is not an emo post.

It is more of a reflection time where tantrums are being dumped here.

I should take control of my life. And major revamp must be done. I can't live feeling not right all the time. It is just a bad feeling living inside me and it should be eradicated.

With that, I conclude. Affairs at home will affect one no matter what! Be it positive or negative. A generalisation indeed. Just believe in that for now cos its what I am experiencing.

Okay, I can smile now.

2008-08-17T08:31:00.000-07:00

I am growing haggard as day goes by.
To substantiate it,
My friend whom I have not met for quite a while claimed that I lost my sunshine.

GLEAT!

All my good aura in me seems to drain away from every crevices of my body. That spells bad.

B-A-D.

To rub it in more, my friend told me I looked like panda and lines (prolly he meant wrinkles) starting to appear under my eyes. Not enough sleep. Thats why.

I admit I have not been feeling all cheery this half year cos I am under too much stress. It is not harmful and I am not depressed. So don't worry. I am able to withstand such pressure.

I am blogging currently at 11:40pm on Sunday. It is late and my eyes are yearning for a deep sleep. I just completed my damn EoM which has to be submitted tomorrow. And fucking hell I have Geography test coming up later in the morning. Maths on Sampling theory and Hypothesis on Tuesday which I have not start studying.

No. I have yet to understand the topic still.

I am tired baby. I need a rest baby.
Come on baby,
Help me baby...

These few days had been fun. I met up with my junior from YPSB too many times which I believed fervently that he got sick looking at my face for at least four times a week. Plus weekend. Lol.

He, who is my junior called Kenny, is a perfect person to slack with everyday.

I know I should not be doing all that evil but I cannot help it. Well, its not as if I do not study at all. So, it cancels out both back to even.

I am going no where in this entry. This coming week is so academically intense.

I tried revising my Chemistry just now and to my deepest fear, I cannot answer most of the MCQ questions in the 5 year series. Thats fucking depressing. Never mind. I should bring it to school and seek consultation. Go for it man!

Ignore me. Essentially, I am talking to myself throughout this whole post.

This is Kenny's greatest besfriend. Lol.
Timothy.

For your super random information,
Farhan used to be from Xinmin which makes Kenny and Timothy his juniors.

And so, Farhan and me went to Kenny's house to, I don't know. Kill time perhaps. They were supposed to do their geography project but Timothy felt sleepy and slowly he drifted.

-Seriously, what the hell is this post about?-

Let it be as aimless as it is now.

Anyway, I should publicise this super cool story.

Kenny has a sister called Germain. She is now in SAJC. She used to be from
Xinmin and Naval Base Pri.

Back in secondary one, I remembered my sec 1-2 bestfriend (Pawan) telling
me that he had this girlfriend back in primary school. Called Germain. And she
went to Xinmin after that.

And a few days ago, I just found out that Germain is actually Kenny's sister.
Who is Pawan's Ex!

How bloody fucking cool is that?!

2008-08-11T06:23:00.000-07:00

Its been days since I sat down and properly put my fingers to work.
I was too lazy to type all the things that had happened throughout the past two weeks.

It was the busiest week I had ever experienced. But most of it were occupied by external events ; Young People Symphonic Band and Malay Language Cultural Society.

Reminiscing the things I did in the past two weeks are somewhat stressful. Ironically, I enjoyed myself fully and had the best of moments in my first year in JC. Finally, genuine happy moments that I longed for since I stepped in a junior college.

The BBQ with the MLCS members was a fruitful one because it was the only time we had together and interacted and much as we could.
I got to know many more Malays in NYJC which was definitely nearing to extinction. The smaller the group, the stronger the spirit is. I guess.

The YPSB was the peak of the events.
The friendships created were priceless. I never knew I would be so close to my juniors. Fate is so unexpected. The first moment you are walking past each other without knowing he/she and the next you will be the joking and wrestling with one another. Heh. Weird.

Ahh. I will miss those moments.

Lesson learned.

Treasure every moment you have and make the best out of it.
Do not spoil the whole atmosphere by being moody or throw tantrums all of a sudden.
You are basically ruining and slipping a good opportunity to have fun with the rest.
Just relax, dump those emotions away and get on with the flow.

The good thing about keeping myself busy with anything that I can possibly engage myself in was that I kept my mind focused and away from any depressing thoughts of studies and affairs at home.

I hardly had any time to bother about those things. And after the whole process, it made me stronger inside.
Okay now this entry sounds like a reflection session.
Whatever it is, heck.

No more important projects coming up!

HOORAY!

Guess I should settle and get down to business.
I have no time to lose.
Promotional Examination is just around the corner and I will always get butterflies in my stomach whenever I think about it.

Shit ass.

Motivation is now automatic. I am extremely glad for that.
For now, I believe I should sacrifice my outings with whoever is dating me or me dating them.

Maybe to kill two birds with one stone. I should ask my friends out for night study session in school. That way, we get to catch up with one another. Bloody reality that we are in different class. Oh. I should not harp on it cos I have gotten over it.

Night Study Session okay?

Minghuat? Farhan? Cheryl? Vivienne? Haniffa?

Heh.

2008-08-10T05:49:00.000-07:00

Second Last practice.

Concert day.

Buddies!

Presenting my section mates aka juniors...

Leewei, who plays the Alto Clarinet.

Anyway, I am sorry if I always forget about you when comes to tuning. Cos you sit way far from the spot I conduct that somehow I miss you out.

Sharlyn!
I love your high-ness man. I will really miss sitting beside you for combine. I cannot help it but to laugh everytime I sit beside you. Feeling with you for Solas Ane was the best. The mucus act you did. Damn it. I will miss you alot.

Kenny,
You ****ster. It was nice knowing you. The sms sessions. The overnight at your house which we made it sound so gay to Sharlyn and Lee Wei. Lol. Will miss that. Well, lucky me you live in Yishun. That means we can ton more often after school. Heh.

Pretty Deborah. I remembered you having stars in your eyes for concert day. Freaked me out.

The Sec 2s, you guys will confirm turn out to be great clarinetists one day. I assure you. Strive hard okay. Weixiang and Weilin and Weili and Leewei All the way! It rhymes. Cool.
And Weilin, it was nice playing 'duet' with you for Childrens March.

I am always scared that I will screw up for that song cos its difficult even for a JC kid like me who plays the clarinet for 4 years.

Weixiang, you pro kia. Make sure next year you must be godly. Especially for SYF.

I will miss you guys badly.

YPSB Wind Ensemble Clarinet Section 2008...

2008-08-04T07:39:00.000-07:00

2008-08-03T02:06:00.000-07:00

Meet my Indonesian buddy, Ghassani Herstanti.

It was the farewell party yesterday at ECP. Finally, I set my foot there.

Can you see the heart?

A hilarious incident actually happened yesterday while I was cycling.
Farhan, his buddy and my buddy went cycling together. At first, I was riding on my own but I decided to sit on the the couples bike. Hence, we exchanged bikes. So, Farhan and me were on it.

After cycling for awhile, somehow we started racing. It was fun feeling the adrenaline rush going so fast. After awhile, it wasn't that nice anymore actually.

We went so fast that my feet could not catch up with the speed of the paddle. Suddenly, I heard a thud on the bicycle. It seemed that something was wrong and the paddle could not oscillate properly.

And yeah. The chain went out of place.

Fish.
We were freaking far from our barbeque pit. And so, we walked with our bicycle. And our buddies left us soon after. It was a long journey needless to say.

The farewell party was very fun. Good thing I went if not I'll miss out a lot.

&Its good that I'm having fun with friends like back in secondary school days.
It feels the same. The happy feeling of spending good time with peers.

Shiok.

p/s: Asnira and Farhanah said Farhan and me look and act like brothers. Of course we are. Haha.

2008-07-26T21:50:00.000-07:00

We didn't get in.

Sorry Noelle!

I didn't mean to forget the lyrics.
Theoretically, I did not forget the lyrics. I skipped one chorus and almost went straight to the last chorus until Noelle made eye contact to me that I realized I was spouting the wrong lyrics. Damn it.

Not only that, I made many more mistakes. The best was at the last chorus where I was supposed to use my head voice to sing the high part. Accidentally, I sang it with my chest voice that...
You should know what happened next.

And it was extremely hilarious when I zhaoxia. It was really unexpected.
Luckily the loud background music and Noelle's voice covered my ultimate mistake. Nevertheless, I still heard my 'squeaked' voice.

Not bad. You really do looked weetarded

Frankly, I am not sad or disappointed. It was because the mistakes I've made were not forgivable and I never commit such mistakes before. And so I knew the outcome would be negative. At least I've gained experience which definitely makes me a better singer or whatever you call it.

Anyway, I was contented to see both Minghuat and Farhan there supporting. I thought they were busy and told me that they won't show up. In the end, they did.

These are what I call true friends.

p/s: Sorry Noelle! Didn't mean to forget the lyrics eh. ): Hope you are not angry.

2008-07-21T05:10:00.000-07:00

I realized I did not do a proper update on how am I doing this past few weeks.
Thus, I shall talk about it now.

Its been awhile since I got back my Mid-Year results. It was expected. My results were atrocious that its not worth the mention here. The traumatizing experience really got me working. I thought I had been slapped hard on the face as a wake up call. I never wish to repeat a year more. The thought of it already makes me blank out.

And yes, let me just face it. It all boils down to working hard now.
It must be.

Random photos.

Every one minute that I'm angry, I will lose sixty seconds of happiness.

2008-07-19T07:52:00.000-07:00

After Friday sectionals, dinner at Sumo House. I think its my new favourite eating place. Cos the food is superbly nice and its disastrously cheap. Went with Farhan, Xiangyun and Cheryl.

She does not know how to eat oranges.

Ex co meeting on 19th of July, Saturday @ 3pm.
In NYJC.

The committee had a meeting right after YPSB practice at AMKSS.
The thought of going back to school was just a turn off.
I presumed it was painful since I can't go home and eat lunch with MH and Farhan.
However, it turned out fun!

Super fun meeting.
Again, rolled on the floor laughing my ass off throughout the whole meeting.
Not literally.

Trust me. I did not take this shot.
It was Elijah.
I am merely helping him to post it here.

Okay. Now, I've exacted revenge for you Xiangyun.

Two Librarian, Two Vice-President (Music) and (Admin).

Come on Andy. Don't be shy!
One Welfare and One Head of Publicity.

And. Here comes the President!
James!

Andy...

Gerard...

Haha. Elijah took all the unglam photos. Bad photography skills. Tsktsk.

2008-07-16T07:44:00.000-07:00

In botanic garden,

I do not remember taking this picture. I know. It must be Farhan.

New Zealanders came to our school for an exchange today.
Ironically, half of the orchestra were made up of Asians.

As tour guides, I think Asians are just the best. Not generalising or whatsoever, it seem to me that Asians are way enthusiastic about everything and they get high and excited over small and happy stuffs. Which is a very good thing.

Farhan and me took a group of Korean girls for a tour around the school and they just made me roll on the floor laughing my ass off. Not literally.
They swear like us. Cool huh.

The Korean girls (New Zealanders) asked,

"Are the skirts suppose to be that short?"

pointing to my friend's unbelievable short skirt.

I replied,

"Oh. Its normal here..."

Isn't it?

Before the lunch time concert we had this lame fire drill which was redundant.
I know. I am very ya ya papaya.

Lunch time concert.

2008-07-13T08:38:00.000-07:00

Congratulations
Chung Cheng High School (Yishun) Symphonic Band!

Another Gold for NBC 2008.

I still remember the times back in NBC 2006 where we gotten our first ever Gold. And then another Gold in Genting. And now, NBC '08 a Gold. I might not be there to support or play with you guys but I did pray hard that the band will do well. And they did.

That was a real breakthrough knowing that the band was in the same league as other superb bands such as SMU Symphonic, MJCSB, Sembawang Symphonic Winds and many more.

I am so proud of you guys.

Botanic Garden performance just now was fabulous.
Did not take a single shot. Oh man. I am so losing touch from this blog.
Yeah. I am so busy with everything that I am neglecting a lot of stuffs at home and etc.

Going to do poster for PW.
Gah.
Shagged.

2008-07-10T07:26:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
MUHD NAZRUL BIN MOHD NOOR!

I wish you all the best in everything. Be it good or bad, I shall support you in whatever you do.

You've just turned 15!

Cool. I'm only 16. Okay. Turning 17. Shit.

You suck Nazrul.
HAHAHA.

2008-07-08T06:15:00.000-07:00

Happy Youth Day!

Free ice cream in Nanyang!

And my brother was so kind to me yesterday. Nazrul, I mean. He knew I was craving for peanut butter. And so he went out to a clinic with my grandmother and the next minute I saw peanut butter and bread on the table when he came back.

Super nice ah.

I am still craving for donuts though...

Random thoughts came crashing again.
It got me thinking out of the blue.

I am not sad. Trust me.
Let me repeat.

It is just a random thought.

This was what I felt or crossed my mind theoretically.

It does not feel nice when my close friends are not in the same class as me.

I don't know.
For me, sometimes I will be wandering when is the next time I am going to meet or just bump into them. Though I understand the situation perfectly and had gotten over the fact that they are not going to be by my side all the time. Except for band days.
Be it in class, breaks or any point of time of the day.

It does not feel right.

It feels awkward in fact.

When luck is totally against me, sometimes I may not even get to see them or their shadow for one whole day. Which I think is very very unfortunate.

The people whom I am emotionally attached to seem so distant. Lol.
Although yes. We are in the same school. But heck. We are of different classes.

This means if I have anything to share, it will be difficult to communicate and bring it across to them. Cos there will be a limited amount of time that we are seeing each other. Which is very depressing to even think about it. Ha. Ha.

I guess you should know who you are when I mention "close friends".
See how worthy and valuable you are to me. Ha. Ha.

I believe it is so essential to have very good friends around you in a JC. Cos most of the time you will most definitely need a helping hand to pick you up to your feet back again when you fall. And they are so so important as the motivation and support mostly comes from these people. In order for you to keep holding on and remain strong.
Especially in a stressful and demanding hell known otherwise as a Junior College.

Funny how life has change tremendously.

Secondary school...

Good friends are constantly around me. At times I get bored seeing too much of them.

JC...

I long for the presence of those creatures whom I call 'close friends' , every single second.

Ironic huh?

Okay.
I shall repeat this for the last time.

It was just a random thought.
I am not sad. Okay. Slightly. A little teeny weeny bit only.
But not devastatingly heartbroken.

2007.
4F!

2008. (Which means now!)
0825!

Yup. I love my classmates. And I shall love everything that comes to me. I shall not take things for granted anymore.

Wah Kao. This entry is super hyperly random.

2008-07-06T21:47:00.001-07:00

Why am I always stuck at home alone?
This is so boring. On the other hand, I do not want to go out since I have been roaming around Singapore since Friday.
Had been going out early and coming back late which was very tiring.

I was sick on Friday and did not attend the Leadership Training Camp. A little saddening missing the chance to mingle around with more leaders from various CCA groups. Anyway, its over. Regret no more.

Sunday.

Hair for Hope 2008.

I went down to Novena to support my brother.

Okay. I shall call Farhan "brother" from now on since I treat him more like a brother and a close friend.

This event is in support with the children cancer patients. You know when cancer patients undergo chemotherapy then their hair starts to fall.
Hmmm...
Okay. That didn't sound quite right.

Let me try again.

The chemotherapy affects the cancer patients body greatly that the hair...
Fall.

No.

It still sounded mean.

Forget it.

So, the purpose of this event was basically to get people who are of course well and healthy to come up and support by shaving their hair to show their encouragement to the cancer patients.
It was really admirable looking at those people shaving their head. Especially women who were so brave to lose their hair up on the stage.

Bravo!

Some random guy in the frame.

Unfortunately, I was late to witness Farhan's shaving. Dang.
When I finally saw him face to face, I was totally blown away.
Got a temporary shocked but after awhile I did get use to the whole bald head thing.
It wasn't that bad in fact. I am sure the shavees feel cooler without hair. And much warmer without hair.

Got ourselves to Bishan to meet Minghuat.

Played Arcade again!

Ya da ya da.

And finally, it was time for ACJC Band Concert in Singapore Conference Hall.

Oh man. I was extremely fascinated by ACJC Concert Band. They sounded superb.

Like bloody kicking ass GOOD.

The whole concert was undeniably enjoyable. I had a good time listening to them.
Well, I do admit I feel a tinge of disappointment and envy after the concert. I mean, I cannot help it but to compare them with NYJCSB.

Honestly, I would definitely like to know what differentiates between a Bronze/Silver/Gold band and a GWH band?

Matthew Tong.

Lucky him, he is flying to Switzerland with ACJC band in less than 12 hours.

Osaka.............

A random shot while walking back from Singapore Conference Hall to Esplanade.

Eh. Damn nice to walk under the stars in the city area. Especially the bridge connecting to the Esplanade.
Seriously, a good way to de stress. It was very relaxing to sit down and just feel the cool weather and the slight breeze brushing through your face. And of course simply enjoy the good company.

Presenting to you the brave young man/boy who gave up his hair to support the cancer patients...

2008-07-03T05:59:00.000-07:00

I miss Chung Cheng all of a sudden.
The band. The class. The teachers. The campus. The atmosphere.
All of them still fresh in my memory.

Good chance to see me in my secondary school uniform.

Yay!

2008-06-30T07:08:00.000-07:00

Kawaii right?!

Haha. Was on the way back from SAJC when we spotted this.
Volkswagen leh.
And the interior was vintage with red seats.
My favourite.

When the H1 Malay people reached SAJC, we felt so inferior. Somehow we kept harping on how ugly our uniform is. Everyone stared at us like we're some aliens. And most thought we were from Hwa Chong. Yeah. We are. The teeny weeny lousier one.

Oral wasn't that bad neither was it fabulous. It was okay for me I thought.
After the NYJC-ians had completed their Oral, everyone agreed that the examiner who took us was extremely sleepy.

Can you bloody hell imagine when we were discussing the topic she conveniently slept!

I swore she slept.

I was talking to the teacher who was well awake at that point of time when all of a sudden I saw a tissue dropped from the hand of the other examiner.
I paused and stared at the teacher who was still sleeping.
Can't help it but to umchio-ed. Lol.

Crazy teacher man.

I should just have said,

"Teacher, I think you should go to the toilet and wash up cos you're falling asleep!"

2008-06-29T05:31:00.000-07:00

The post examination feeling are worst.
I thought it was heaven after the end of MYE. I guess I was totally wrong about that.
Yes, the only good thing is that I won't be feeling guilty when I slack.

Before hand, I was so enthusiastic about doing all sort of things after the bloody MYE. Now, it isn't the case. It seems like the old boring nothing to do typical days in school.

Babi.

I will be sitting for my Malay Language Oral Examination tomorrow. I hope it will be good. I tried my best to speak it but to avail. Chicken MC Nugget.
Its okay. The oral shall be spontaneous. I will do my best.
Praise the Mouth and Brain!

Its Sunday. And everyone (band members) are like staying at home. Okay. Thats indeed good. However, its difficult for me to ask them out since I've been given only rejections so far. Well, can't be blamed as band was non-stop since Friday. They needed the rest essentially.

And so, I went out. Arcade session. Wohoo.

This Para Para dance machine made me laughed madly.
I don't know why I am so fascinated on this thing. And with Minghuat dancing in it, it made it even more hilarious.

Okay. One random picture.

Was on the way to Grandma house at 11pm to get my stand. God knows how it ended up there.
I was wearing my school short and started playing with its incredibly short length.
My shirt could cover my shorts.

Sooooo reminds me of someone.

2008-06-26T05:45:00.000-07:00

I can't tell you how relieved I am now.
My H2 subjects and H1 Maths are done.
Malay Language paper first thing tomorrow morning.

But I still have not done my intention to wind up and rejoice to mark the end of Mid Years.
Never mind. I shall do it tomorrow. Plus an extra boost from Red bull to hype me up more.

My day just stung right after the band meeting.
It was a last minute thing that there's band tomorrow. At 5pm.

Now I shall I type in caps.

JUST FINISH MYE STRAIGHAWAY HAVE BAND?

YOU KIDDING ME.

CAN GIVE ME A BLOODY BREAK?

IM SO ANGRY NOW
THAT
I FEEL LIKE BITING SOMEONES HEAD OFF.

The days had been hard on me this week. Hardest week I've ever felt in my entire life apart from Os which is nothing compared to this. I deserve at least a days break. Not five hours to band.
Oh come on.
Theres YPSB practice on Saturday.

Fine.
I shall party on Sunday.

Meanwhile, I shall find ways to really loosen myself tomorrow. I won't go back home after the papers. I shall roam around Singapore. I must drag someone with me.

Cheerios!

p/s: I am sorry if I sound irresponsible as a Vice President Music. No that I do not look forward to band practice. I can't help it but to demand for a long rest. I need to revive my dying battery in me.
I am dead serious. A good long rest.

2008-06-25T07:16:00.000-07:00

Sleep do wonders.

It does perfectly.
Yeah. Look at my previous post. I was feeling super wuper stressed at around 6 just now.
Helplessness and hopelessness were the two poisonous emotions.

6pm+

I jumped onto my bed trying to comfort myself that everything will be alright. Though, most of the time I was suffocating myself on the pillow and banging my head on it. It was a safe attempt to vanquish your anger on a pillow because it was most definitely harmless and so soft and bouncy. In fact, it helped me to release my burning tension reeking in me.
Pessimism engulfed my entire body to its worst state ever.

Then I could not take it anymore.
I seriously needed someone to talk to.

I called my good friend and started sharing what I felt. Maybe it shocked him a little that I sounded like I was going to die anytime soon. I apologized for that.

Thanks brother for your listening ear and time. Really appreciate it.
Thats just what I needed that moment. Someone to hear me out.

After the call, my eyes were feeling exhausted.
My eyelids were gradually closing in on me. My eyeballs were practically swinging lazily, swerving from left to right of my vision.
Which at last.

Curtains closed.

9pm

I woke up. Then saw a friend's message. It was very comforting and nice of you. Thank you very much for your concern. I turned to my phone and scanned through my song list.

I listened to Avril's " Keep Holding On". It lifted my spirits somehow as the meaning of the song was exactly what I should rightfully hear when I'm feeling down.

An excerpt of the lyrics,

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

I should not give up now. Its way too early to surrender. Listen to what my friends say and everything shall be fine.
I pray hard for it to be good.

Stress no more!

p/s: I was so tensed up because of my studies. MYE all that. Not able to do like 80% of the whole paper just ruined my hope. But I feel much better now.

2008-06-25T03:28:00.000-07:00

This is it.

I finally reach my limit.

I can fuck myself.
I should tell myself to go and die.

I am fucking stress noone would also understand.
Believe me.

S-T-R-E-S-S

DO YOU UNDERSTAND?!

I do not know who to approach. Fuck.
I've never felt this way before.

I kept holding on until now. And fucking hell, I've had enough. I don't know how to pull myself together.

Fuck me.
Fuck me.
Fuck me.

I BLOODY FUCKING HELL SHOULD DIE.

WHO CAN I SHARE WITH.

ASSHOLE. FUCKERS.

FUCK.

2008-06-24T09:18:00.001-07:00

Chemistry. Chemistry. Chemistry.

I foresee a U on my result slip. Probably, I'll see three Us if my luck does not work on me.

I was feeling hopeless just now. Indescribably hopeless. I was practically yelling as I walked around the house trying to calm myself down. The thought of sitting for Chemistry in a few hours time is horrendous. And I can't deny that guilt has finally dawned upon me. What a perfect time to be ashame of myself.

Since I was feeling down and almost dead, I approached my mum on the bed. Hoping to ease off the apprehension that was lingering in me. I got into my serious mode and told her.

With a very gloomy and sympathetic face,

"Mum, I am sorry if I am going to screw up my Mid Years. I really feel bad now. I tried my best to study but it just won't reciprocate."

Wow. It won't reciprocate when I do not even try my best.

And then,

Start the blabbering of the merciless nag from both my brother and my Mum.

I felt worst.

I managed to study a little on Chemical Bonding and Atomic Structure. Yes. I know. That's freaking a small amount compared to what we are going to be tested.
Heck. What can a last minute thing do? It won't do wonders in such a painful short period.

My brother gladly suggested to just scan through briefly on my notes.
Hey, of course I'll gladly do it. And I think thats the only best way to do it. Chionging tutorials does not make any difference anyway. Why bother to pressurize myself now?

Sometimes I just wonder how my friends do it their way.

How come Farhan can pay so much attention to his notes?
How can Cheryl study and be optimistic?
How can Matthew be so strong-willed?

I might not guarantee what I say is true. But I'm just merely doing a comparison.

My mind is drifting away, whats new.

And I want to go to a place like this!
Just to breath the fresh air and enjoy the sea breeze.
Ahhh. Isn't it relaxing?

Okay. I swear I will go to East Coast Park after MYE.

2008-06-23T08:16:00.000-07:00

I just want to type a lot a lot in this post.

And hence this entry shall be extremely random.

Firstly, my brother is growing a lot more than me. That is unfair. His height is overtaking me sooner or later.

I remember back in Secondary Three I was only like 162cm.

And now he is like at least 165cm.

no. I do not want to look shorter than my brother. Embarrassing shit.

I don't know why. But I tried to drink loads of Milk. I did. Still, there wasn't any significant effects eh? Ahh.

I felt so cheated.

I still recall back in Primary Five, we usually have this buddy system with the Primary One kids. You know bloody hell I was the same height as the Primary One boy.

Tell me will not sad meh?

Worst still, I remembered vividly that the boy's parents approached us and asked whether I was his friend and was in the same class. I mean its perfectly right that we were friends but same class?

=.=

I was Primary Five la dey!

Paiseh to the max.

Then when I started to have my puberty in Secondary One, I was super happy because my height suddenly skyrocketed. I was quite tall among some of my classmates.

Unfortunately, the following year, it seemed that all the guys grew even more than me. I was no more feeling tall at all.
All the way till now, I am still considered quite short.

Quite.

I am the shortest in my class.

With a height of 168cm!

Actually I am alright with my height. I have no problem with it.
But I think short or relatively short people won't be so appealing to girls leh.

I mean come on!

Lets face the facts.

All girls will definitely look at the guys height at first sight. Which they will then proceed to looking at the looks and build.

Sad.

Somemore, I am skinny. And well, I shall not mention about looks.

I already short. Girls also won't take notice. This isn't exactly about girls la. Just a random thought after reading a blogger's latest entry.

Anyway, I should tell you this.

I have finally touched 50kg!

Damn happy.

I was never fleshy as I frequently call it.

Back in my secondary school days, I'm always around 45-47kg.
It was at that similar range. Damn sian.

Somehow, I guessed being stuck in a JC with stressful life hounding most of my days, I will surely gorge down a lot of food to release those bad tensions. And of course my favourite.
When I'm stress, confirm I will sleep alot.

Sleep even more zai than a pig I tell you.

But still never grow fat so much. ):

Back to topic, being QUITE short now is not bad. I have an excuse also!

I was born on 22 December 1991!

Late what. So I take slower time to grow loh.

Damn lame excuse. But everyone seem to fall for it.
Its quite reasonable what right?

I am quite happy when I did the regular yearly check up on my height and weight.

Last year I was 167cm.

Now I am 168cm!

Grow 1 cm sia!

I still intend to grow taller. Minimum 170cm.
Cos I always compare to Tank. The Zhuan Shu Tian Shi guy.

He's only 171cm!

So if I can reach 170cm. It will be good!

Second topic, I think I am rather sentimental. Oh man. This is bad. Well, in some cases it is bad but most of the time its good.

I really treasure friendships alot.

Alot.

Up to the point, I do not mind jumping off a building for friends.
Okay. Thats just ridiculous. But yeah, I will. I think...

*slaps forehead

It gets painful at times. Cos I know very well the fact that I'm treasuring it so much that I neglect all the things around me.

Trust me. It hurts to see myself not doing well in anything.

The good point is that,

I will try as much as I can to talk to friends even if it means sending a simple sms. Or a 'HI' on Messenger. Thats a plus point that I see myself having.

All I can say is I like establishing good relations with people.

More often than not, it is easy to do it.
As for some anomalies, it gets pretty difficult as it interferes with my favour and likes.

At times, people mistook me as being over friendly. RARE. But it does happen sometimes.

My social circle practically make up the whole personality museum. All the personalities that you can possibly think of and come across.

Nerds. Lesbians. Gays. Happy girls. Emo girls. Happy guys. Emo guys. Sensitive humans. Aggressive beings. Heartless homo sapiens. Bitches. Anti-socials. Sunshine boys and girls.
Popular kids.

Yeah. I mix around with them. Cos I do not really care who they are as long as they are nice and tolerable.

I do think I mix with a fair number of both sexes. Yeah. Such a fair amount that people starts to think on the extreme.

Befriend with so many girls...

Flirt.

Befriend with so many guys and some more so close...

Gay.

0.0

Lets face it.

Life's like that.

Anyway, the people whom I am closer to are usually those who are of the same thinking and maturity as me. Most of the time, they are the people whom I have the chemistry with.

Covalent bond
Sharing the same interest.

Ionic bond.
The willingness to accept your friends liking and dislikes.

Chemistry!
Damn it.

But the bad thing about being someone who treasure friendships too much is that...

I don't know but it might be a little annoying to people.

I guess?

Maybe I am a paranoid because I always think millions of times before I commit myself to anything.

Like...

Oh shit. What if I sms too much that my friend find me irritating?

Toot. I think I talk excessively to her. Now I think she officially labeled me as a pest.

You know. These type of paranoia which most of the time seemed redundant and definitely unnecessary.
But I can't help it yaw!

Socializing too much can be a killer.
So moderate socializing shall be the medicine.

I shall stop my pointless speech for now.

=D

*************

Maths was manageable. Though I still think I may (not will) fail. Completed 29 marks out of 50marks of the paper. But obviously, I can't be so lucky that all the calculations that I did are all perfect and correct.

Nevertheless, I hope I will pass.

No paper tomorrow. What a delight. That spells S-L-E-E-P.
Overdosage of sleep. Okay. Cannot. Must study Chemistry abit.

My hope to pass Chemistry is so faint that it seems hopeless to even hope.
That is how bad it is.

Heck. I will still hope.

Nights.

2008-06-22T05:26:00.001-07:00

Group pictures.

The rest of the pictures are still synchronizing to my Sharing Folder. Meanwhile, I shall faster dump all the photos in here. If not, it will accumulate to the next entry.

MYE tomorrow!
Maths tomorrow!

Yay!

2008-06-21T06:37:00.000-07:00

Click on it to enlarge.

Oh no. I'm addicted to Japanese Marches especially March Beyond The Critical Point.

2 Days to Maths Paper!
And I haven't done anything for Mathematics.

Kill me man.

At least I enjoyed my day. I went out to the Zoo with my former classmates from Chung Cheng. I missed them so much and it was a pleasure meeting those people.

Shall update when I receive the pictures. =D

So stay tuned for Zoo outing!

2008-06-20T03:41:00.000-07:00

I lost my fucking wallet!

Important documents in it were my EZ link, ATM card and my precious IC.

As pathetic as the current state I'm stuck in now, there were no money in it.
There was only a fucking one dollar coin. =.=
Which meant, to whoever took my wallet must be a dumb ass.

*cursing silently

*digging out a voodoo doll from his pocket and start prodding it with a needle while reciting some chants

Please return back my wallet.
Please.
Please.
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.
.
.
.
.
.
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PLEASE!!!

I beg you to whoever took stole my wallet.
I feel so empty without it.

I met up with Farhan in the morning which we then headed for the nearest police station.
And I reported my lost documents.

Got to my house and started studying.
A little bit.
We were multi tasking in fact. Watching Swing Girls and revising.
But for my case, 90% of my attention was diverted to the screen.

Went for prayers and ate lunch.

Came back and resumed our study session.
I've finished Geography.
Tonnes more to go.
And I'm left with 3 days to MYE.

God bless me.

Teenage Icon 2008.

Heats on 2nd August @ Suntec City.

Will update more.

I find the photo real cute and funny.
We looked like prisoners huh?

p/s: Pardon me for blogging the point form way. I promise I'll blog properly after the Holy MYE.

2008-06-19T04:51:00.001-07:00

I have nothing to blog now.
Thats rare huh?

Maybe my mind is too traumatised by the fact that MYE is coming in 4 days time that I am lost for words. I still have a lot more topics to cover. God bless me.

I feel so tired and drained.

You know what I feel like doing?

I want to go to Sentosa and experience the Sun.
I want to go East Coast Park and roller blade there.
I want to go for a swim in Yishun Swimming Complex.
I want to go to Arcade and play Silent Hill.

I want to go spent my day without any stress!

I love the adrenaline rush and the intensity of MYE.
Even better than a roller coaster ride.

Trust me. Its way better.

2008-06-17T22:04:00.000-07:00

I had been constantly having nightmares this past few days.
And it scares me.

I took the lift.
It shook violently.
I tensed up and prayed that everything will be fine.
And then it dropped.
People died.
I managed to live.
I woke up and saw a friend standing next to me.
Ahh. Sweet.

But it was still crazy to be experiencing the horrible scene of me going to die.

Thats not all.
I had three dreams all in one night. Madness.

This one was hilarious.

My teacher was in my hotel room checking us out.
She went out and I closed door.
I waited to make sure she was gone.
I turned to my room mates and all of a sudden jumped for joy.
Cheering merrily.

That was random.

The last one was...
the same dream I had for the past two days.

I experienced it three times respectively.

What are they trying to say? =/
Mind freak.

2008-06-17T07:02:00.000-07:00

Day 7 in Osaka

Theres pretty much nothing to talk about. I was just sad that day. Leaving Osaka, after getting used to everything and loving every moment spent in a foreign land, it was hard to accept the fact that we are going back to Singapore. Time flies.

On the way to Kansai Airport. Everyone was sleeping. Clement and me were just staring into blank space.

Toyota-san, our tour guide.

In Bangkok,

Emo. Ha. Ha.

Four hours in Bangkok? Nuts! So all of us went for a Thai Traditional Massage.
Which cost me $30. I paid in Singapore dollars. (=

Clement.
We were side by side. Kept laughing because the way they massaged was extremely ticklish.

Crap. I looked like a horny gay bastard. No. I looked like I've just been raped. And still smiling after being raped.
Gayshit.

**********

Damn. There are loads more pictures that people have not send me.
This is from Clement's.

I violently demand for the picture that Gerard Farhan Minghuat and me took at the well.
The super wrong pose that we did.

Come on!

2008-06-16T21:52:00.000-07:00

I'm living the days on sheer determination of practically nothing.
Visually, its quite obvious that I am unmotivated by everything that I do. Truth is, I am still continuing this same inevitable attitude. The helpless hopeless restless self.

I've never felt this way before. Being so caught up in the past, that I neglect the present. I have to have a grip on myself now. But its way too difficult. You are gone. So are you. And you. You guys can't be all by my side all day long. Its impossible. I know. So the support has to come from me. And so does the motivation. It should and MUST be automatic. Currently, this is not the case.

Back then, I can still sense the hope and happiness and sweetness of being a student. Life's good when I have the greatest people around me. A fixed classroom, same old students. Now fucking shit. There's no such thing. Everyones mugging. I'm not. Frankly, I've never seriously mugged before except for the forced fact that I have to study for Os and maybe PSLE. The concrete truth of my secondary school is that the students are not muggers. Not a least bit for all I know. And it dawned on me that things are different and its hard to even change myself. All because I am not seasoned to books notes and those shit.

Come on. I admit.

I love singing. I love being outdoors. I love music. I love hanging out with friends.
This is me.
Well, everyone hates studying but coming to the near fact that MYE is just a few days away. Its depressing that I need a good let out.
I did some revision. A mere good revision. I covered some topics of Geography and Economics. None on Chemistry and Mathematics. Fuck those things.

No matter, I will conquer it later. Trying my hell best. I am going out later to study. I really desperately hope it will be productive. It must be or I will doom myself.
Get over this shit and I will be happy. For awhile at least.

And fuck. I had the same nightmare again. This is not happening. To hell with those dreams.
I am still living my life. I fervently pray it will never happen. Just ponder what Fate has in store for me. And I will gladly experience it with open welcoming arms. That is if it is not torturing my ass off.

Paranoia is on the loose.
Come back to the genuine reality Naz!

2008-06-16T06:14:00.000-07:00

The every day photos taken in Osaka was Eunice's idea.
She had to take at least one picture with her beloved junior every day.

So here they are...

I discovered something so extraordinary.
I hardly smile in any of the pictures above.
Its either I gave a stupid face or an expressionless look.

Miraculously, this was the only I found myself to be smiling at least.

Its all taken from Eunice's phone. I just had to post it.

2008-06-15T08:15:00.000-07:00

Thanks Nisa for helping in editing those things. My template is back to black now.
Phew. I thought my blogging life is gone.

I had a weird dream last night.

My existence forsaken.
My presence abandoned.

I called but there wasn't any response.
I stunned for a moment.
You left without a word.
It was just bizarre.
But it felt excruciating.

I woke up and told myself it was just another nightmare.
I smiled after awhile knowing that it was not real.
Yet another game of the mind.

Emo huh?
Ha. Ha.

2008-06-14T03:06:00.001-07:00

Went down to Esplanade with Farhan and Clement.
Thought of looking for chorales but thinking twice I'm sure there won't be any since most of the pieces in the Esplanade library would be orchestral pieces.

Our time in Esplanade was up and we wanted to check out the Singapore Flyer.
Walked quite a distance and got ourselves there about a few minutes.

And so, we grabbed a bite at the 7-11 to fill our stomach. Was dreaming to ride on the Flyer but I was just poor at that point of time. So we passed it. Theres always next time...

My All-Time favourite drink!

Red Bull gives you wings!

Clement so cute!
HAHA.

He's a talented flute player okay! And I am his successor. Vice-President Music! And I am sad that he's going away to NAFA. ):

All the best!

Someones getting excited...

Made a short foray to Marina Square.
We went into the Sound Room in the Creative shop.

Cool shit the sound system were all surround!

This was just a case of bad photography for covering the flash with a finger.

Farhan's friend joined us for awhile. And we got into Kiddy Palace.

Cute right?
I used to have this type of toys back when I was very very young. I am still young though.

Farhan and his friend went off for some alumni band dinner after wards. And its me and Clement left. So we decided to play somemore. Not enough for the day!

Dropped by Junction 8 to play arcade with Minghuat.

I love Silent Hill to the max.

2008-06-13T20:28:00.000-07:00

Day 6 in Osaka

Undoubtedly, it was the best day I had in Osaka. Cos we were going to Universal Studio Japan!

Universal Studio was only a 10 minute ride from our Hotel traveling by the train.
It was so exciting to be boarding the train with such a big group. It was true that the Japanese were so organized when boarding the train.
Firstly, they lined up in rows and when the train arrived, they would moved back automatically. After the people in the train went out, they would then come in.

So civilised.
Unlike...

With Eunice in the picture.

The band.

Find me.

And so, we missed the earlier train and had to wait patiently for the next one which had a longer interval. Camwhoring session without a doubt came into the picture while waiting.

Xueli and me.

James (President) and me.

Jane, Naz and Selena.

Look. The saxophone guys had similar tees. Just that the design were different. So sweet.
Ha. Ha.

Finally! We've reached.

Wohoo.

The first thing we saw when we came in were Betty Something Something which I had no idea whats her last name, a penguin and that Bandicoot. I can't recall their names. I chased the sexy one first cos she was in red. Hot.

Kawaii! With Liting and Cladys.

With Crash Bandicoot. Whatever the name is. And Farhan Gerard and Minghuat.

After awhile, Minghuat suddenly felt like answering nature's call. And doing some big business I believe. The group waited for him.

Cladys and Naz.
Look at Mel's face!

Ahh. My very good friend.
Farhan.

Okay. Got tired of waiting and me too had to pang sai.
Joined Minghuat's business in the toilet.

The group (May Melissa Liting Cladys Clement Gerard Minghuat Farhan) walked around and bumped, not literally, into this darn talented violinist.

It was hilarious. He spoke to us in Japanese at first. But we told him that we were not Japanese and barely spoke the language. He was surprised. We spoke English and he was delighted. He claimed that its been so long since he conversed in English with the kids in USJ.

Thats not all. He asked us whether there was any songs for him to play. Movie themes or anything which were obvious to the media industry. But we requested him to play something Classical, orchestral pieces. He was pleasantly shocked once again knowing that we were musicians.

Thats even better!

I asked whether he could play Toccata and Fugue in D minor. He did! Godly.
He entertained us with songs and we entertained him by forming a temporary acapella group singing rhythms and basses for him.
Cool to the Max.

I was sure he had a great time with us. Speaking english, playing orchestral pieces and singing acapella with us.

We too had a blast with him.

I remembered May telling us to go for the warm up ride as our first ride.
We did.
It was such a great warm up.

And it was the bloody roller coaster!

It was just a massive monster trying to suck my life out of me.
And it did a little. Hell.

See that steep dip? That was scary. It freaked the shit out of me.

Walked. And walked. And walked.

There were street performances along the way.

Go gaga over Hello Kitty!

Ahhhhh.

Got into this place which housed cartoons. Spent a few minutes there when we were supposed to head for the E.T ride.

Just treat it as a pit stop.

Clement Farhan Naz

Kiddie boy.

E.T ride was fantastic. The whole plot and feel were exactly the same as the movie.
The best part of the ride was when all of us got into this space filled with glittering stars and skyscrapers. There was a full moon nearby and the theme song played concurrently made the whole atmosphere perfect.

While waiting for our turn.
The queue was extremely long. Well, every ride had long queues. Occupied ourselves by playing some games.

Alert!
Unglam picture ahead.

O.O

I can explain how it happened.
Here we go.

I was squatting with my camera placed on the floor. Farhan leaned against me. It was okay at first. After awhile I lost my balance, had to gripped something firm. Unfortunately, I pressed the shutter on my camera and Click it went.

And ta da.

An unglam shot.

Cool shit.

Makan time!

Farhan with my suspenders.

The whole band thinks he's cute. But ironically, I don't think likewise leh.
Shit. There's perfect explanation for this.

Hmmm, perhaps I got used to him that the cuteness just don't work on me anymore. Ha. Ha.
Okay la. You are still cute Farhan. Don't worry.

Hot red.

Sexy black.

Spiderman 4-D ride was superb. It was one of the best we've took.
Cos it felt so real. The bad guys would jumped directly in front of you and attacked. It was horrid. Every one of us in the cabin shouted like mad.

With the 3-D spectacles.

Buddies!

My shop. Welcome.

Dang. This was the coolest picture we took on that day. Super hyper cool.
With no professional help or whatsoever.

Credits to Mel! Or was it May?
Whatever, credits to the both of them!

Cladys Liting Naz

Yes! Clement, the picture that I've longed to post it up.
And finally its here.

Clement claimed that this picture was so gay of him. Haha.
Indeed.

Off we went to Snoopy Ride!
A roller coaster which was less intense and definitely meant for children. But heck. All of us still rode on it cos it was a 10 minute queue.

Frankly and seriously, I thought the ride was rather frightening. Even the rest had the same opinion too. So do not underestimate junior roller coaster.

More shots while waiting for some who were in the toilet.

Piggyback.

After the Snoopy Ride,

The evil hand of Gerard.

Awwww. Clement.

Farhan and Mel.

Up next was Jurassic Park.

It was not that scary after all. I over estimated the intensity of the ride. I think I made a fool of myself by being so paranoid before the ride. Yeah. By whining like a girl and shouting over small dips and giving countless redundant shocks to myself.

Chevrolet.

Jurassic Park was our last ride in Universal Studio Japan. I'm sure everyone enjoyed themselves. And it was nice to spend my time with the gang.

Before I conclude the end of our visit in USJ, we stepped into a souvenir shop. Just to kill time out of boredom.

Spiderman.

Indiana Jones I guessed.

We are not the Little Gang Clement! Lol. If you were referring to our sizes, I violently object. Haha. If its just a name of the gang without any insinuation of anything. Then its okay...

Nevertheless, I do admit that I am small with reference to my height and weight.

Pictures with the Globe.

Roomates.

The day didn't simply end so fast. We still had a concert to attend to.

Me with some of the J2s. We were waiting for the rest to come before we can enter into the Symphony Hall.

Osaka Municipal Symphonic Band with guest player Steven Mead, the god among all euphonium players.

The concert was fantastic.
But I slept 2/3 of the concert. Don't blame me. Everyone else were sleeping too. The NYJC-ians I mean. It was because we were exhausted after spending a day in USJ. We had to take a break.

I was only alive during the last two songs. And it was good.

The day still hadn't ended.

Rushed to Tower Records upon reaching back to the Hotel.
I bought myself one more disc and a headphone.
Satisfaction guaranteed.

The shelves which had all the symphonic band discs. You will go crazy looking at the variety of songs they had.
And thats only part of the section under symphonic band. There were more than in the picture shown.

Supper.

Honestly, I was very sad that night. It was my last in Osaka. And more importantly, it was nice spending 7 days in Osaka with two great people.
The idea of leaving Osaka and continuing life back in Singapore just sucks.
Trust me, it suck like hell.

Stress accumulating back. Parents control again. Warm weather.

However, sooner or later I still had to face that harsh reality.

No more emo stuff.
I shall be happy now.

To end off, this picture shall mark the end of Day Six in Osaka.

My brothers' a butch. =/

2008-06-12T06:58:00.000-07:00

Day 5 in Osaka

I had been spending my money so cautiously the past four days that I left with quite a big sum in my wallet. Lets just say the fifth day was a time where I splurged the most.
I bought 2 bags. Well, its not that bad.

But taking into account that I bought another one when I reached Singapore a day after. Thats considered pretty sinful. Yeah. And I've been labeled shopaholic by Joshua. Currently, I have more than 10 bags in my room.

Now thats madness!

The day started off rather slow and dull. The best thing was on that day, everyone got into their bold Nanyang Junior College uniform which I thought was utterly embarrassing. Yes. Its true. We looked like prisoners who just escaped from a jail. Walking passed the Japanese who were in their school uniform made us so inferior to them.

Checkered pants and Sailormoon cutting top for the girls made us go green with envy.

We walked through a market selling the usuals. The common stuffs you find in Singapore, fish, meat, pork and etc. The place was humongous though. I loved the ceiling cos it had different sections with various colours on the glass ceilings.

And thats Cheryl trying to peep in.

Got to the place which sold a lot of electronic gadgets and the groups filtered away. Farhan, Andy and me separated from the rest aimlessly. Good thing we were away from the majority cos luck was on our side and we found this shop which sold anime figurines!

Freaking cool.

I was super sad after that.
There was this Final Fantasy collector items which cost bloody 9800 Yen. It came with Cloud's blade and his motorcycle. And of course Cloud Strife himself. Good gracious it was way too expensive for me to afford. So, I'd passed.

Before that, we bought ice cream to soothe our throat. And the shop keeper was so nice to help us take a picture.

Dang, My face very round. I didn't know that.
NO. Its only a bad angle.

This was outside the shop that I mentioned.

Doraemon so cute.

Tall tall Andy!

Andy Naz Farhan Cheryl.

Shinsaibashi after that.
Was excited to go back there again.
And finally I bought things. Essentially, for me.

I had a lot of fun shopping with Farhan.
I sound gay. Ha. Ha.
Gayshit.

No la. Theoretically, we were simply being pangseh-ed by the rest when the both of us were so engrossed in choosing the sports bag. Hence, we can't find anyone so we took the time to go shop ourselves.

Most unfortunately, both of us were short of cash, and we started to beg around for money to purchase the Fred Perry bags. Okay. Not literally. Just searched for NYJC-ians but none appeared. Luckily, god's will Mrs Judy Tan came into sight and Farhan borrowed some money.

Ultimately, we bought the bags.
Fred Perry.
And a Puma for me and a Nike for Farhan.
Ha. Ha.

After awhile, we saw Chris and Shaoming-ge. Thus, decided to join them. Both of us shared lunch. I know. Pathetic. Because we hadn't had any money left except for the tonnes of coins I had which I later used it for the meal.

And so, we headed to Meijo Gakuin High School. Some facts on the band. They have about 500+ students in the school. And 120 of them are band members. Thats not all. They are a Gold band not just in Osaka but the whole of Japan as well.
They even appeared in the All Japan Best Competition DVD 2007.

COOL TO THE MAX.

NYJCSB settling down.

Can you imagine their junior band play 10 times better than us?!
And they only started learning in April.

What shit is this!

Presenting the Main Band.

No need say. Superb as hell. They played without scores. They sounded great. They had dancers. They had gimmicks. They had enthusiasm.

What more can I ask for?

During the photo taking session, I was busy holding the NYJC banner and took the chance to snap this shot.

Ahhh. My scandal.
Eb clarinetists.

After the whole exchange had ended, we had a small. Chit chatting, eating, and taking pictures.

Frankly, I had the best time in Meijo Gakuin compared to the other two schools I've visited.
And I learnt quite a lot of things there. On how they train and etc.
I can tell you they are perfectionist.
They go into deep details when comes to Music.

And that explains why they are in perfect shape.

So many clarinetists. Brrrs.

It was a fruitful exchange with them. We even exchanged our badges.

Sayonara Meijo Gakuin High School!

After that, dinner was on our own. I think. Can't really remember.

Farhan and me were so hungry that we bought burgers and fries. I swore it never tasted so good before in my life. Minghuat went off with his section and so he was missing.
Anyway, ta pao back to Hotel.

I can just drool over my keyboard right now.

This picture shall mark the end of Day Five in Osaka.

Ahhh. The bags that enticed us. The yellow belonged to Farhan and the white mine.

2008-06-11T07:32:00.000-07:00

A mind with swirling jealousy and insecurities.

He had to move away from it. He must and will do it.

2008-06-10T22:33:00.000-07:00

Day 4 in Osaka

Ohiyo-Gozaimasu!

We were given free time in the morning after breakfast so the clique went to roam around the city. In the vicinity of the Hotel definitely.
Unfortunately, the free time from 9am was a little too early for the shops to open. Hence, we waited along an empty street and started camwhoring. That would help to kill time. Fast. And it did.

May Cladys Cheyenne and me.

Next top model.
Ha. Ha. Very funny.

The boys, with the usuals,
Gerard Minghuat Farhan and me.

Alert!
Random picture coming up.

Don't ask me why we did that. Hmm, were we discussing on how sleazy that corner was and decided to do a scenario on it?
Yes. I assumed so.

From the left,
Clement May Naz Farhan Minghuat Gerard Liting Jane Cheyenne Cladys

Person missing in the picture was Melissa who was the photographer.

Emo. More like sulking.

Next up was the exchange with the Osaka College of Music. They played Poet and Peasant Overture and March "Blue Sky" to entertain us. Truly entertaining and and awakening session for the band. They were superb obviously. Need I say more? I was just ashamed at that point of time.
Fact was, the band was ashamed of their standard for every single exchange we had.

The band reached early and the International Affair head took the band for a tour around the Opera House. It was splendid. Just a little small though. But nevertheless, the hall was indeed beautiful.

Afterwards, we got into the band room and settled down to hear them play.

The clarinet section was near perfect in terms of intonation and unison. I hardly hear any clashes. WOW.

The band.

Sectionals were not productive at all since most of the time spent was chit chatting about shallow stuffs. I'm not pissed or anything. The thing that kept me on the verge of losing my temper was the communication barrier. It was extremely difficult to bring across a certain idea or topic. Cos both parties only understand simple English and simple Japanese.

How simple can it get?

The time spent with the Clarinetist of Osaka College of Music was rather happy. We talked about obvious stuff that associate each country. For instance Pokemon, Doraemon and the freaking Merlion which mean no significance to us Singaporeans.

With the Eb clarinetist. Shes 21 years old.
I didn't notice my hair was like a pile of shit standing proudly on my poor head. So it had to censored.

Kawaii neh!

She's so pretty. And her playing skills were horribly good.

Dinner time!

It was good. Only the tempura thats all. The rest was just plain bland. It was steamboat which I do not favour much. As I know most of the food would just be tasteless.

There was tempura on the table.
The only thing I loved of that dinner.

The rest of the food seemed alien to me. And I did not munch much on it.

Presenting the special table!

Halal+Vegetarian.

Asnira and Cladys.

Mr Low and Farhan.

I seriously wonder how Farhan can eat so much. I mean. I know he travelled a lot according to him that he got used to the food at some countries. But I thought it was crazy. Cos I felt the food was unbearably tasteless. And definitely not meant to be eaten in my context. Of course the Japanese would love it.

Shit. I'm whining. Okay. I shall stop.

Naz and Asnira.

Naz is my friend. He look exactly like me. His name is Nazriano. Some people think we are twins. But we are not! He's more kind hearted than me. And definitely way mature more than me. That is why I adore him so much. Such good soul he has.

HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Thus, this picture shall mark the end of Day four in Osaka.

Eunice Selena and Naz

2008-06-10T06:53:00.000-07:00

I blatantly decided to signify that day, Gay day!
Pink rocks. =.=

The third day was not bad. We took a break and its more of sight seeing again. More temples as usual. In addition to that, the meals were getting tastier. I was happy. The Muslims and the vegetarian can finally have a peace of mind.

Joey wife. =D

Pink umbrella. Hot.

Cool right? You can even blow dry your hair in the temple. It was perfect. It was raining and I just needed that to dry my hair.
And its free! Why worry?

Singaporean spirit all the way!

The people whom I sticked to without fail throughout the full 7 days. Super enjoyed their company.

I thought this picture was cute. Liangyun looked like a father or maybe grandfather to Farhan.
LOL!

Gerard and me.

Fact:
Right after we took this photo, we were chased out.

Lunch was located at this Hotel in Kyoto. It was decent to be eaten. Tasted good than the past two days of eating dont know what.

Farhan, Gerard Jane and me.
Look at Gerard! HAHA.

Weeting and me.

Filled our empty stomach and got ourselves to this particular district. I'm not sure what it was though. But the shop houses looked stylo mylo. Oh! And the band managed to spot Geishas! Damn cool. I do not have the picture though. Some of the bandits have it. Go bloghop to Huiyu's. I think she has.

I thought this figurine was extremely funny. It was very random to appear out of nowhere outside a shop. You can even see the small cuckoo bird. I tell you, I was traumatised after witnessing such atrocity! =.=

After an hour and a half long journey traveling back to Osaka, it was definitely time for dinner.
Anyway, dinner was a few streets away from Shinsaibashi. So some of us actually walked back to shop. I didn't.

Itadakimasu!

Liting and me. I was drinking Red Bull. To boost my energy!

This picture shall mark the end of Day three in Osaka.

p/s: The picture above was taken in Manga Musuem. We were exhausted when we reached the Manga Museum. It didn't interest many of us. So some of us slacked in the children's corner. Out of oblivion that there's an age limit to be permitted inside. But heck! We got in.

2008-06-09T05:28:00.000-07:00

Day 2 in Osaka

Oh man. I will have to post every day this week just to clear the full entry on the Osaka trip. There are too many photos. It is so sad that I have to choose the photos that I am going to put up. Cos the editing all those shit, there are just not enough time. And plus, I am lazy.

Meet Farhan.

Meet Minghuat.

I love the both of them to the max.
Gayshit.

It was a sight seeing session in the morning before the band headed to the first Japanese school that we were going to visit, Yujigaoka High School.
We visited the Osaka Castle which was a distance away. The weather was superb that day! Cool like mad.

Aha. This is hilarious. From the shortest to the tallest. I'm considered very short since the interval between me and Jerry is way big.

Eunice and me.

Angel and me.

An emo pic with Gerard. Oh no. I didn't suggest to snap this shot. It was his idea. I'm not always emo.

Lick it baby!

Its taken at the top of the Osaka Castle. It was a pleasant sight from the top. The wind was just shiok. And that would explain my messy hair in the next few pictures coming up.

Farhan, Eunice and me.
Eh, both of them were from Xinmin. Cool. Senior Junior.

The both of us and Rainald.

The Japanese kids are the cutest things on Earth. I'm not a paedophile! The girls are too pretty beyond words.
*faints

Clarissa and half of Rainald.

KAWAII NEH!

Eunice, Jerry and me.

The percussion with their favourite Milk tea. It seriously tasted delicious.
For your information, the Milk Tea are available in Singapore as well. Go find!

Roomates. They are one of my closest buddies in school and band.

After the short sight seeing in Osaka Castle, it was time to go shopping at Shinsaibashi. Its a very very long street with shops and boutiques which can't be found out in the common area.
The shopping district there is even better than Orchard Road. Compared to Orchard Road, its quite lousy.

Shinsaibashi.

Festival Clarinet.
Pretty like fuck! Damn it.

Alexander horn. Another sexy one. Shit.

Outside Hello Kitty boutique.

The Mickey Mouse shoe. Humongous seh.

Yuqing, Farhan and me.

All of us were in the Disney shop. There were a lot of cute stuffs sold in there. I bought a couple of files for myself and friends. Who wants it? Book first! Got Stitch Mickey and... er forgot what was the other one.

Next stop of the day. It was a music exchange with one of the schools in Osaka. They were fantastic. The higher brasses blew me away. Made us lose face.

The auditorium. Freaking hell. They have it!

Ahhhh. She plays the trumpet. Same age as me too. Dang! I should have brought her back to Singapore. O.O

They were so nice to send us all the way to the bus because it was raining that very day. We were up on the bus and armed ourselves with our cameras. All of the bandits in the band started to snap pictures of them. They even pose for the camera. Enthu people.

The day was exhaustive. Drained most of my energy. Dinner was progressing somehow as each day passes. And surprisingly I finished it that night.

And so.

This picture shall mark the end of Day 2 in Osaka.

Brothers!

2008-06-07T21:16:00.000-07:00

Hello Singapore!

I am back. It feels good to be back at home though I still miss Osaka. The whole trip which lasted for 7 days was extremely memorable. It was fun needless to say because of the company that I enjoyed the most.

Many things had happened throughout. The bond we created as a band. The enlightenment for listening such good band sound. The hardship to find food. Culture exchange. And many more.

But more importantly, friendships deepen.

I can't afford to put it into words how happy I was back in Osaka. No stress flooding my poor exhausted mind thinking about school. Out from the leash of my parents. In Osaka, I was there all by myself. Free from any thoughts which never failed to pressurize me.
The times there were perfect. I was enjoying every moment of it. Excluding those bizarre period where I just go silent and do not feel like talking.

Overall, it was amazing.

That was what I thought about the trip.
Alright, we shall cut the serious talk and go straight to the happier ones.

My family and a couple of friends sent me off. It felt good to see my loved ones waving goodbye to me when I finally checked in. I was at ease.
Took off at 840pm in Thai Airways at Terminal 1.

These are the TG people. The rest are on SQ. The lucky SQ were on the 1am flight which was later than us. I am still not happy that they had all the various entertainment system in the aircraft, while the TG people rot to boredom.

This was at Bangkok International Airport. If you do not know, the TG people were on a transit flight to Osaka. So, we stopped at Bangkok for an hour.

I was sleeping on the way to Osaka. Woke up right away when I realized that I can actually witness the sunrise. There were icicles on the window if you squint your eyes hard enough.
Uber cool!

And ta-da! We've reached. We were waiting for the arrival of the SQ people.

Welcome to Kansai!
It was quite dumb if you add in an "A" in between "N" and "S". You know what i mean.
Hoho.

Then off we went to Nara!

My first ever meal in Japan. I was baffled for awhile. I'm just not used to it what.Well, I didn't quite manage to finish the meal cos I thought it was too pretty and colourful to be eaten. =X

Itadakimasu!

The park that we visited in Nara had a lot of deers. They housed around 1,200 of them.
Super a lot!

Pris and me.

This temple is. Don't mind me saying this.
FUCKING HUGE.

I was amazed by how the ancient people managed to built this without the advanced technology that we have now. I bet their architectural skills were way better than us.

This Buddha is made up of bronze if I can remember correctly.

Ju-on!
It was pure coincidental that the picture turned out to be like that. Just a random fact on this picture. The tiny hole that the little girl was trying to get her out from is the size of the nostrils of Buddha. Its said that whoever managed to squeeze through it will be sent to Paradise afterlife. Which I do not really believe so.

A sinful person will have to pay for the evil deeds!
If not, it won't be fair.

The band made their way to a restaurant.

The food tasted bad. Oh man. I'm complaining. But I am sure Asnira and Farhan agree with me.

And so, its time to go back to the Hotel!
Basically, the three of us got loose and went wild. Plus a lil bit crazy.

Know why they ended up on the floor. They were wrestling. I didn't join. I am a civilised person.

Minghuat complained too much. He insisted that his face should be in the frame properly. It was!
Never mind. I think this will make him happy.

This photo shall mark the end of Day 1 in Osaka.

Madness!

2008-05-30T09:06:00.001-07:00

I'm flying off to Bangkok to Japan in less than 20 hours!

Exclude my sleeping time, bathing time, eating time, watching tv time, chatting time, and etc.
All these can be put aside because it will just make me forget about the time.

Wau Competition later at 8am. At Catholic Junior College. Trust me. I will be fucking shagged. Its not a bad thing. In fact its good as I can catch a nap in Thai Airways from Bangkok to Osaka.

Bubble wrapping is fun with the Percussion. Cutting the scotch tape and fooling around. Woots.

After bubble-wrapping, Minghuat Farhan Gerard and me went out for dinner and do some last minute shopping. (:

Darn. I will miss a lot of people. You know who you are. Even if you don't, just treat as if I will miss you.

NAZ SIAO LIAO!

HIGH TO THE MAX!

OSAKA HERE I COME!

p/s: I won't be blogging in Japan. Why? I don't have a bloody laptop. ): Buy me one loh. See you guys in 8 days time. Take care. (:

2008-05-29T08:04:00.000-07:00

1 bloody more day to Osaka.

Okay. Its only 11pm. Lets don't take into account the useless one hour since I'll be using it to blog.

I went out today again.
Yes people, again...

My intention today was to settle all my necessities.
I had to purchase a shoelace for my dirty shoe which was turning charcoal black soon.
Also, I needed to get some attractive boxes to pack the gifts for the Japanese.
I have to buy some food as well to keep my survival going in Japan and most importantly in the hotel room since I'll be spending two hours of my precious life to study.
Can't help it but to get all the sweets and cookies to make sure I'm constantly awake when revising. If not, I'll gradually drift away and just die on my bed.

Met Farhan in the afternoon.
He needed to source for gifts for three Japanese schools that we are visiting. We made a short foray to Tampines Mall. A wasted trip indeed. Practically the things over there don't seem to fit the criteria of a mix of Kawaii nehx! and the elements of Singapore.

Disappointed with TP Mall.

At the very least, I tried the new Golden Onion Rings and Spicy Chicken Mcnuggets at Macdonalds. Not that nice frankly.

Headed to Plaza Singapura after that.
Ahh. Finally, a mall which has everything.

Toys R Us!

I see Cheryl!
HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Daiso sells cheap stuffs. I do not know that. They sell almost everything from stationery to bras to plants.
Cool shit.

Both of us got some pretty stickers which are definitely...

KAWAII NEHX!

Roamed around aimlessly to search for the perfect gifts. Abit hard ehs?
Settled down at a shop which seriously sells crap. And Farhan bought something there which he regretted after awhile.

CDs.

Partly, it was my fault since it was my idea. I suggested that maybe it was nice to burn some Band songs related to Singapore. Singapura Suite, Singapore Rhapsody and Postcards from Singapore.
And photos can be stored as well! Perhaps the Japanese might like it when they open it up and they see three Trumpeters from Singapore who once had an exchange with them. A memento.

Not until we came across this.

The tag on the package is extremely hilarious.

Buy 1 Get 1 Free!

HAHAHA.

At last, we still bought it. It has a Merlion template on the biscuit. That already represents Singapore somehow or another. So they can eat the biscuits and feel. Ahhhh. The Singapore feeling is heavenly, provided the biscuits taste good.

The boxes I bought were sexy. My type. Emo. Black and white. Perfect.

I've started packing!
Not done at the moment. Shall continue tomorrow.

SAYONARA!

2008-05-28T20:26:00.000-07:00

Chio right?

I will not show how the band wind breaker looks like.
Cos its O.O.
Read my expression.

2 freaking more days to Osaka!

56 hours left!

Come on!

2008-05-28T08:22:00.000-07:00

Oh dear hands and legs. Please, get me back on track.

I swear after the Osaka trip. I will change for the better. For now, I shall do it gradually.

3 more days to Osaka!

Seriously, I should have not gone to Thai Airways. I want to sit and board the SQ with my brothers.

KNN.

2008-05-27T06:49:00.000-07:00

Japan outfit try out.

After Chemistry lecture, Xiangyun Cheryl and me went out to Bugis. It was a last minute thing but heck. It was still nice. Damn. A person was actually missing. Farhan, the PSK. Tsktsk.

I like Xiangyun's bag sia.

Guess what? I bought a suspender!
It is way cool. Elijah from the Peter and the Wolf cast inspired me to buy it. Ahh. I shall wear it in Japan. I don't care.

See the suspender. Cool like toot.

I am such a retarded asshole who plans almost everything related to the trip. Even the clothes that I'm bringing must try first!

Yeah Cheryl. I agree with you. I am an EMK. Natural emo kia lehs.

2008-05-26T17:15:00.000-07:00

4 days left to Japan!
Countdown with me yeah?
=D

My plans on Tuesday.

I declare that I have a whole list to settle.

Get clothes from Adib
Buy loads of cup noodles, snacks, and water bottle
Pack my luggage
Pay up the $30 to Ms Peh

Okay la. Not that many. But come to think of it, do I really have time to do it?
Hopefully.

2008-05-25T07:11:00.000-07:00

Ebullience!

Guess the meaning of the word.

Teenage Icon audition was held at Cathay Cineleisure. I joined the duet category with Noelle. My bestest singing partner and best friend. It was a long day filled with mercurial temperament. Needless to say, the prologue of the audition was the enriching one.

We came at 11am but decided to wait for Noelle's friends. Ended up going the 2pm slot. Breakfast was a desperate need at that point of time. Headed down to Long John Silver since there wasn't many choices available too.

I seem to have a massive problem with this picture. I look fucking gay + to the maximum.
With much courage, I still want to post it to avoid wastage.

And so, we chose to practise at this secluded corner while waiting for the other two to arrive. Both of us complained that our voices had yet to warm up. Patiently, we waited and practised.
And in between, do some snap shots.
Go out with Noelle confirm take a lot of pictures one.

Look at my bloody height. Haha.
So short.

Sing, sing a song. Sing it loud.
Lalalalalalala~

After much hesitation and reluctance, we finally registered. There were a lot of humans back in the hall. Soon, my stomach was infested with butterflies.

Anyway, the auditions started on Friday. So, the day that I came was the last one.
The one I attended was the afternoon session. I guessed the morning session must be a whole lot worst. We went up for the morning session to kay poh abit. The moment the door of the lift opened on the 8th floor(the place where everyone register for TI08), we freaked out.

I see sardines!

THEY GOT IN!!!

WE GOT IN TOO!!!

Here comes the interesting part. Their audition was before us.

The song they sang.
Xin Dong Xin Tong.

The song we sang.
Xin Dong Xin Tong.

Thats not all.

Afiq and Sharon.

Naz and Noelle.

Find the similarity?

Chinelay la dey!

Chinese+Malay!

Wayyy cool.

Allen, Noelle's boyfriend got in too.

Basically, all of us went in.
Noone was left behind, hurt.

Here we come!

Heats on July!

2008-05-24T10:07:00.000-07:00

Things which are going through my mind these days.

I love photography.
Hence, I shall express my thoughts in it.

2008-05-24T05:41:00.000-07:00

I came across this ultra amazingly superb misleading email.
Those kind where it seems pointless to even open it up and reading it. But God wills, my curiosity got the better of me. I opened it and started scanning through the content. Trust me. After reading the whole mail, I was infuriated. It was just full of flaws.

You look for yourself.

WHAT THE FUCK?!

Since when in the name of Islam, we punished ruthlessly?
I do not remember any excerpts from the Quran that crime have to reciprocated with punishments which demeans the religion itself. It does not even state that punishment is necessary.

I apologize that I will not post the next two pictures. It is not appropriate to show the pain that the boy has to commit himself into. It isn't right.

I personally feel that the person who made this email is stupid.
Firstly, he/she does not understand what Islam truly teaches us.
He/she only absorb the multifarious of events that had been happening today.
The various terrorist attacks everywhere which many associate them with Islam.

Yes. The people who carried it out were Muslims.

But.

The fact is:
Their knowledge of Islam is bent. They worship the word "violence" more than what is being taught in the name of Islam.

Islam never teaches us to succumb to VIOLENCE.
Never.

And he/she is out to degrade the religion. I am sure of it. Or simply his/her perspective of this religion is wreck too. Sigh. Plain stupidity.

2008-05-24T00:51:00.000-07:00

A cynical belief that holds untouched in this abysmal captive in my head.
A sweet escape to the given truth is all that I desire.
A desperate need to immerse into the apparent answer.
A fervour of this anonymous quietus.

I am a Certified Emo Kid.
):

Well, at the very least, I've found what I've been looking for.

A friend. A true friend.

That will make me smile.
(:

2008-05-22T07:48:00.001-07:00

GENERAL PAPER EXAM TOMORROW.

GOD BLESS ME.

And look!

ALAMAK. SO CUTE. HEN KE AI LEHS.
LOL.

Sorry for typing in caps. Just felt like it.
I think my brother damn cute la last time. Now, oh my god.

Such a pain in the ass.

I hope you are reading this Naz Jr.

HAHAHAHA.

2008-05-21T07:26:00.000-07:00

I've become less tolerant towards people who simply do not blend with me.
Yeah. I don't care.
Nevertheless, I will still be nice to them. I have no choice unless they choose to publicly exhibit their loathe to me. Then obviously I have to reciprocate. They treat me badly. I treat them the same way. Isn't it karma? Deliberate karma. And it is only fair to give back equally.

Sure enough I should never create enemies on purpose.
However, it is inevitable to avoid conflicts especially when the other party do not know one yet. What is being judged is only the surface which is barely recognizable to the naked eye. The inner self is not yet exposed. Hence, the quick perception towards one.

This is interesting. Lets just see how it goes.

On a lighter note, I am starting to feel more belonged with friends. As in, I still gallivant around the school alone but I am not so alienated anymore. Cos I have accepted the fact that things have changed. And theres nothing I can do except adapting to it. It isn't so bad.

Slight digression,
Initially, I never felt like a sore loser in ChungCheng.
Apparently, when I step foot into NYJC, its way different.
I feel like a total slacker that everyone despise.
It sucks.

***********************

Japan trip is coming in 10 days.

10 freaking days!

The only thing that I am bloody looking forward to is visiting

Universal Studio Japan!

Gayshit.

I want to hibernate until next Saturday.
Wake me up on 31st May alright?
Okay. Good nights.